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Brandon gave me the link to Aimee Mann's new Cd, you can listen to the whole thing, and its SO GOOD. im really glad you (or Brad, i forget which it was) introduced me to her. i love her music, her words are very powerful and just make me feel better.
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eh, nothing really new. school is winding down, just the rest of this week and then next week is the last week of classes, then finals and graduation. I'm ready to be done with school, but at the same time I'm nervous about being done with school because school is basically the only thing I've done as of yet (not counting summer jobs). It's just going to feel weird not taking any more classes or doing homework, studying...all the school related things that everybody loathes but then its comforting to know that its there and its not like a HUGE responsibility (like having a job). Idk, i guess im not really explaining this well, lol.
but on a better note, im viewing 3 apartments on saturday (yay!) and we're seeing one that may in fact be exactly what i want (we'll see, but hopefully). and in that case this dreadful process can be over with and i'll have one less thing to stress over.
Things with antonio are really good, he's definately been my saving grace through all this mental breakdown stuff, lol. I know its corny and i always gag when everyone writes shit like this in their journal, but i really do love him so much, and i honestly dont know what i would do without him. thats what makes not coming back to school a bit harder cause he still has 2 more years here (yuck). but binghamton is only like 2 1/2 hours away, so its not a horrible distance, and it could be so much worse. but its hard when youre accustomed to seeing some one every single day and then only seeing them like once a week or less then that. so yea, i'll deal, but there's gonna be an adjustment period. the summer i think will be the hardest becuase im moving to a place where i know no one, starting a new job, living alone and he's going to be all over the country (as per usual for his summer). but we've made it this far with not too many scars and bruises, lol, so i think we're going to last, at least i hope so. 2 and a 1/2 years is a long time, but i have no desire to date anymore. he's the end of the road for me, lol. and no we're not engaged yet or anything, we're waiting till he's done with school to even talk about it, which is fine with me. i have no desire to get married at 21 (like everybody i know is, i swear) im content with the way things are with us, it works.
well this has been absurdly long entry with me not talking about much of anything, lol, so im going ;p
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eh, nothing really new. school is winding down, just the rest of this week and then next week is the last week of classes, then finals and graduation. I'm ready to be done with school, but at the same time I'm nervous about being done with school because school is basically the only thing I've done as of yet (not counting summer jobs). It's just going to feel weird not taking any more classes or doing homework, studying...all the school related things that everybody loathes but then its comforting to know that its there and its not like a HUGE responsibility (like having a job). Idk, i guess im not really explaining this well, lol.
but on a better note, im viewing 3 apartments on saturday (yay!) and we're seeing one that may in fact be exactly what i want (we'll see, but hopefully). and in that case this dreadful process can be over with and i'll have one less thing to stress over.
Things with antonio are really good, he's definately been my saving grace through all this mental breakdown stuff, lol. I know its corny and i always gag when everyone writes shit like this in their journal, but i really do love him so much, and i honestly dont know what i would do without him. thats what makes not coming back to school a bit harder cause he still has 2 more years here (yuck). but binghamton is only like 2 1/2 hours away, so its not a horrible distance, and it could be so much worse. but its hard when youre accustomed to seeing some one every single day and then only seeing them like once a week or less then that. so yea, i'll deal, but there's gonna be an adjustment period. the summer i think will be the hardest becuase im moving to a place where i know no one, starting a new job, living alone and he's going to be all over the country (as per usual for his summer). but we've made it this far with not too many scars and bruises, lol, so i think we're going to last, at least i hope so. 2 and a 1/2 years is a long time, but i have no desire to date anymore. he's the end of the road for me, lol. and no we're not engaged yet or anything, we're waiting till he's done with school to even talk about it, which is fine with me. i have no desire to get married at 21 (like everybody i know is, i swear) im content with the way things are with us, it works.
well this has been absurdly long entry with me not talking about much of anything, lol, so im going ;p