Mothers Day & Missing of people.
Well Made it through Mom's Birthday without major issues, and here we sit at Mothers Day a Month later and I'm having major issues missing her. Its been over two years and I think about her constantly, and talk to her nearly daily. But for some reason the stress in my life and the holiday have made for a mess today. I know it will pass, and I'll still miss her and talk to her. But for some reason Today my brain isn't managing the math that nothing really changed since yesterday.
Happy Mothers Day, Mom. I miss you.
Yesterday we went to see "How to train your Dragon" loved it, had so many great scenes and they did a great job with the dragons, they really nailed the personalities. Which might be why yesterday I was missing Pouncer so much, I felt like they had been watching her for some of the scenes. Which brings us back to Missing Mom today, I suspect I got started missing Pouncer, and today was Mom's day so it just compounded.
Miss you Pouncer, I hope you get all the feather snacks and tuna flakes you can eat.
Finally tomorrow is my Birthday, and I feel like I've lost the goal of my life. Not that I even know what that goal was, or if I was still on the path by the time I exited the Army 20 years ago. I wonder about the surgery (lap-band) I had now 9 months ago, I lost 40 lbs in the first 6 weeks, and have lost 10 more about 4 times since then. My last post mentioned that I had a goal of loosing 27 lbs by my birthday. I am at that exact same weight today as then, and only then because I spent the weekend sick, and not able to eat much. So my new goal is to loose 27 lbs by July 4th which gives me just about 2 months, or about 3 lbs a week, which isn't a un-reachable goal but is going to take a lot of work to reach. We shall See.
Typing this seems to have eased my mind a bit about Mom, Pouncer and my concerns about where life is going. So we shall see what tomorrow, next week and July 4th brings.
Thanks for Reading
Ben
Happy Mothers Day, Mom. I miss you.
Yesterday we went to see "How to train your Dragon" loved it, had so many great scenes and they did a great job with the dragons, they really nailed the personalities. Which might be why yesterday I was missing Pouncer so much, I felt like they had been watching her for some of the scenes. Which brings us back to Missing Mom today, I suspect I got started missing Pouncer, and today was Mom's day so it just compounded.
Miss you Pouncer, I hope you get all the feather snacks and tuna flakes you can eat.
Finally tomorrow is my Birthday, and I feel like I've lost the goal of my life. Not that I even know what that goal was, or if I was still on the path by the time I exited the Army 20 years ago. I wonder about the surgery (lap-band) I had now 9 months ago, I lost 40 lbs in the first 6 weeks, and have lost 10 more about 4 times since then. My last post mentioned that I had a goal of loosing 27 lbs by my birthday. I am at that exact same weight today as then, and only then because I spent the weekend sick, and not able to eat much. So my new goal is to loose 27 lbs by July 4th which gives me just about 2 months, or about 3 lbs a week, which isn't a un-reachable goal but is going to take a lot of work to reach. We shall See.
Typing this seems to have eased my mind a bit about Mom, Pouncer and my concerns about where life is going. So we shall see what tomorrow, next week and July 4th brings.
Thanks for Reading
Ben