...The little differences...
I usedd to like hoo I was... I was so so different. I know I am different/weird now... but I used to love being different at skool. Knowing I did not fit it... And guys were never on the mind... I didnt want to fall in love... and I had never been played or used.
Now my self esteem is low. I feel messed up and selfish. I feel selfish because I am always sad. I dont like people always asking whats on ym mind... it will just make me break down and cry. i dont want that. I dotn like crying near any-one else but myself. Alone.
I miss being a loser ... im still a loser. But I mean wheres Doug? I dont have mighty doug to be a loser with... and the gates? I dont know any-one really hoo knows how to decapatate people any more... I have changed so so much. Guys are always on the mind. And.. I get useed and playeed a bit.
I mean.. eeeeeeerrrrrrrgh.
AND WHATS THE FUCKING DEAL WITH ONE OF MY MATES TODAY! I felt so betrayed. Shes thinking about herself... and yes Meh.... It just seems like alls he wants is a guy... and shes going out of her way to make me look like a fool so she can have him to herself. I do not want him, but I would prefer tot to be potrayed like she is. And then she lies about it.
shes an awsum mate. I lvoe her 2 death. I just cant take that shit at the momment.
And guys dont worry about me.
Now my self esteem is low. I feel messed up and selfish. I feel selfish because I am always sad. I dont like people always asking whats on ym mind... it will just make me break down and cry. i dont want that. I dotn like crying near any-one else but myself. Alone.
I miss being a loser ... im still a loser. But I mean wheres Doug? I dont have mighty doug to be a loser with... and the gates? I dont know any-one really hoo knows how to decapatate people any more... I have changed so so much. Guys are always on the mind. And.. I get useed and playeed a bit.
I mean.. eeeeeeerrrrrrrgh.
AND WHATS THE FUCKING DEAL WITH ONE OF MY MATES TODAY! I felt so betrayed. Shes thinking about herself... and yes Meh.... It just seems like alls he wants is a guy... and shes going out of her way to make me look like a fool so she can have him to herself. I do not want him, but I would prefer tot to be potrayed like she is. And then she lies about it.
shes an awsum mate. I lvoe her 2 death. I just cant take that shit at the momment.
And guys dont worry about me.