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Hey there.. Yeah I know it's been FOREVER since I've written in this thing!!! Now I suppose is a good time to start.. Yeah.. START.. That's my new word.. For the rest of my life. This year has been crazy so far.. At the beginning of the year, I came down to Florida to visit my daddy.. And had a blast.. We really didn't do too much, which was fine with me, cuz after christmas, in layaway (which went quite smoothly I am happy to say!!!) I needed a break.. SO I came down to FL to relax... And that's exactly what I did.. Actually I really didn't want to leave... And the truth be told, I really regret leaving.. I balled all the way home.. My dad was even crying, and that made it hurt even worse.. I had a lay over in Atlanta, for something like 3 hours.. Cried the whole time.. Yeah, I guess it was pretty sad and pathetic, but oh well! Getting home... That's a whole story in itself.. Nothing and I mean NOTHING seemed right.. AT ALL!!!! I knew something was up.. Serious.. Steve had cheated on me while I was in FL.. With Sami.. Yup... If that's what he wanted, as far as getting out of the relationship, it's pretty sad when you have to take that route.. He wasn't even man enough to say something like, "look I don't want to do this anymore"... No instead, let's fuck her friend.. TO make a long story short.. All in all, I didn't give 2 shits.. I didn't want to be with him anyway.. It was all fake.. And now I realize this.. Everything about our relationship was fake.. He's happy now.. LOL He's still with Sami, and they are having a baby!! AWWWWWW... gag me! They'll get theirs!!! But as for me.. What did I do???? What I should have done YEARS ago.. Something I have always wanted to do.. and it feels really good.. I moved.. Down to FL.. With my daddy.. I have a house that I can call home.. A new car.. A new life.. A new job (with the same company)... Goind to be making new friends.. Even though, OH MY GOD, don't get me wrong. I'm really missing my friends like crazy... You would not believe.. More than I thought I would and more than I am letting on.. I miss hanging out with everyone after work.. Going to Slicks with everyone.. But I think all in all, this is the best thing I have done.. EVER... The plans that I have and are going to carry out is amazing.. I am finally getting my life in order.. And most of all it feels really good.. And I finally feel good about myself. And that's what matters most.. It's not what anyone else thinks about me.. It's what I think about me.. If there is something I put my mind to, damn it I'll do it!! And that's the attitude that I've gained through the past few months.. People can say what they want about me and my actions.. But, at least I know I have made the right decisions for once in my life.. I can actually keep money in my bank account.. I am paying off bills, that should have already been paid off. But everything seems to be falling into place. As far as my love life goes. Of course I miss having someone there.. Someone to talk to.. someone to cuddle up on the couch with.. But it's not a priority right now.. It would be nice if mr. perfect would just all of a sudden pop up, but we all know that's not going to happen.. My number one priority right now is me.. And that's what it should have always been.. but no, I let things cloud my thoughts and my actions.. You live and you learn.. If I didn't learn anything from the past 2 years.. I would definately have something wrong with me.. The future looks so bright and clear.. Not to mention the weather!!! lol It's not like NY, dark and gloomy.. I just feel so much better down here.. Anyways... Other than that.. The best thing right now... Is that my Manda's here.. Well she's sleeping right now.. She was only up for 36 hours straight.. LOL she got here about 2pm today... She took the internship at disney.. I am so happy for her.. I know how hard it is to leave a loved one and friends to go somewhere where you don't know anyone.. It's hard.. Really hard.. But it's only 8 months.. She'll get through it.. And not to mention, she won't be alone.. jamie will also be there.. And the good part is they will only be 2.5 hours away.. So I can see them or they can come up here and see me.. I think I'll feel better knowing that.. And I just hope we can see each other as much as I would like to.. Well anyways.. I am gunna get going.. I'm kinda tired now.. And there are some other things that I wanted to change about my LJ.. So I'll keep in touch.. Talk to ya soon!!!