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Despite my "study session" I still feel as though I am not prepared for my History test. Seeing as it wasn't even really a real study session haha. Tomorrow is my last official day of school, not including the days that I only go for a few hours to take exams and then leave. Who wants to hang out Monday? I don't have to go to school. And who wants to hang out Tuesday? I get home at 10-ish. And Wednesday and Thursday? And Friday before I leave for California? Damn, I am so stoked for summer. But, I have to get a job in about 2 1/2 weeks. And I have to do community service for my scholarship [gags uncontrolably]. It's nights full of acting goofy such as tonight, that reminds me how much I truely care about people. Despite my cynical nature, I still allow myself to love and care about several people in my life. And even if those people are only a few, my love for them is bigger than the amount of people I actually care about. In a non suicidal way of course, I'm sick of life. It's so boring, so monotonous. Anyways. Here are a few pictures at free period today.
I'll have lots of pictures tomorrow, porque I'm bringing my camera to school.
Oh and I decided that since I am bored. I am going to write anonymous mini paragraphs about people that I actually like.
And if you are special enough, you can guess which one you are.
I do this often, just haven't in a while
1. I'm not sure if I could picture my life without you. You play such a large role in my life, that I honestly don't know what I would do if you didn't exist. I wouldn't be the person I am now. I've learned so much about myself through you. Who cares if we're a little different. And who cares if we're not "twins" anymore. You will never judge me, and I would never judge you. And even though you go to homecoming with 17 year olds who don't know what an erection is, we can still be friends. Well -- I guess we kinda have to be. Seeing as I have to live with you forever. Half blood
2. We never got along that much. Until something immensely life-changing happened in both of our lives, but mostly mine. And we instantly became close. I love spending time with you, as strange as that may sound. I think I hang out with you more than I hang out with my best friends. But I really do love being with you and I love talking to you. I love having tea parties with you and telling you about all the people I encounter during the day that I hate. I love being able to come home to you and tell you about some fight I got in, or how I puked all over Zach's bathroom floor because I drank too much rum, and telling you about how I cussed out some bitch blocking me from getting into the bathroom, and then laughing because I had to change my tampon. I really love you, I don't know what I would do without you
3. I love you. Beyond words. I am such a better person because of you. We ALWAYS have a good time together. And I like how everyone thinks you and me have mental disabilities. Sometimes I get scared to tell you what I'm feeling, but I always end up telling you in the long run. Sometimes I wonder what I would be like if you and me were never best friends. Probably in jail. Or in the hospital from drug overdose. Or dead. I don't know if I would have ever turned my life around if it weren't you pushing me to get better. And that means so much to me. Hurry up and come back from Ohio, jerk
4. We were never really close until this year. But I am so so so glad that we started talking and we became best friends. Because you mean so much to me. I love you so much. I can tell you absolutely everything in a heart beat and I will not hesititate to tell you what's on my mind. I feel so comfortable around you, so complete. Like there's someone else around me that I can share my testimonies with and someone who will understand what I'm going through. You are everything that I've ever seeked for in a friendship. I can't wait until you're ungrounded. Because I can't stand going every weekend without being able to see you
5. I don't even really know if I can even really write all my feelings about you. It would take too long. So, I guess I'll first start off with ... I love you. Really, I do. Alot. You mean everything to me. I love being with you, I love talking to you, I love falling asleep next to you, I love sitting in the car next to you, I love just staring at you, I even love sitting next to you in complete silence. I feel so overwhelmed when I'm with you -- like a mixture of comfort, and safety and happiness. I've never met anyone like you. Sometimes, alright well most of the time -- you make me feel really stupid. Which probably explains why in the beginning, at times, I was quite distant in talking to you. Because I felt stupid. But I don't care anymore. I feel like I've been friends with you my whole life. I feel like I've been with you forever, even if that isn't the case. I don't even feel like I have to impress you anymore. Like I could walk onto your doorstep wearing no makeup and a pair of sweat pants and I wouldn't care. I feel so comfortable around you. Sometimes I worry if you're gonna stick around or not. But I have a feeling in the back of my mind [hopefully] that you will. I can't picture my life right now without you in it. Even at times when we've stopped talking, I always keep thinking about you, and somehow we just kinda fall back into talking to eachother. I'm so glad that I met you. I even remember the first thing you ever said to me. "Can I take a drag off that?" It was a Turkish Gold. I even remember the first day we ever hung out. October 30th. I liked you from the first day I ever talked to you on the phone. We talked for like 3 hours and for the first 30 minutes you just read the news and told me about it. I've made so many transformations while I was with you. I'm not even gonna bother finishing writing everything I feel about you because it would take too long. But, I love you, so much
6. I hate you, that's all
I'm showering. Goodnight
I'll have lots of pictures tomorrow, porque I'm bringing my camera to school.
Oh and I decided that since I am bored. I am going to write anonymous mini paragraphs about people that I actually like.
And if you are special enough, you can guess which one you are.
I do this often, just haven't in a while
1. I'm not sure if I could picture my life without you. You play such a large role in my life, that I honestly don't know what I would do if you didn't exist. I wouldn't be the person I am now. I've learned so much about myself through you. Who cares if we're a little different. And who cares if we're not "twins" anymore. You will never judge me, and I would never judge you. And even though you go to homecoming with 17 year olds who don't know what an erection is, we can still be friends. Well -- I guess we kinda have to be. Seeing as I have to live with you forever. Half blood
2. We never got along that much. Until something immensely life-changing happened in both of our lives, but mostly mine. And we instantly became close. I love spending time with you, as strange as that may sound. I think I hang out with you more than I hang out with my best friends. But I really do love being with you and I love talking to you. I love having tea parties with you and telling you about all the people I encounter during the day that I hate. I love being able to come home to you and tell you about some fight I got in, or how I puked all over Zach's bathroom floor because I drank too much rum, and telling you about how I cussed out some bitch blocking me from getting into the bathroom, and then laughing because I had to change my tampon. I really love you, I don't know what I would do without you
3. I love you. Beyond words. I am such a better person because of you. We ALWAYS have a good time together. And I like how everyone thinks you and me have mental disabilities. Sometimes I get scared to tell you what I'm feeling, but I always end up telling you in the long run. Sometimes I wonder what I would be like if you and me were never best friends. Probably in jail. Or in the hospital from drug overdose. Or dead. I don't know if I would have ever turned my life around if it weren't you pushing me to get better. And that means so much to me. Hurry up and come back from Ohio, jerk
4. We were never really close until this year. But I am so so so glad that we started talking and we became best friends. Because you mean so much to me. I love you so much. I can tell you absolutely everything in a heart beat and I will not hesititate to tell you what's on my mind. I feel so comfortable around you, so complete. Like there's someone else around me that I can share my testimonies with and someone who will understand what I'm going through. You are everything that I've ever seeked for in a friendship. I can't wait until you're ungrounded. Because I can't stand going every weekend without being able to see you
5. I don't even really know if I can even really write all my feelings about you. It would take too long. So, I guess I'll first start off with ... I love you. Really, I do. Alot. You mean everything to me. I love being with you, I love talking to you, I love falling asleep next to you, I love sitting in the car next to you, I love just staring at you, I even love sitting next to you in complete silence. I feel so overwhelmed when I'm with you -- like a mixture of comfort, and safety and happiness. I've never met anyone like you. Sometimes, alright well most of the time -- you make me feel really stupid. Which probably explains why in the beginning, at times, I was quite distant in talking to you. Because I felt stupid. But I don't care anymore. I feel like I've been friends with you my whole life. I feel like I've been with you forever, even if that isn't the case. I don't even feel like I have to impress you anymore. Like I could walk onto your doorstep wearing no makeup and a pair of sweat pants and I wouldn't care. I feel so comfortable around you. Sometimes I worry if you're gonna stick around or not. But I have a feeling in the back of my mind [hopefully] that you will. I can't picture my life right now without you in it. Even at times when we've stopped talking, I always keep thinking about you, and somehow we just kinda fall back into talking to eachother. I'm so glad that I met you. I even remember the first thing you ever said to me. "Can I take a drag off that?" It was a Turkish Gold. I even remember the first day we ever hung out. October 30th. I liked you from the first day I ever talked to you on the phone. We talked for like 3 hours and for the first 30 minutes you just read the news and told me about it. I've made so many transformations while I was with you. I'm not even gonna bother finishing writing everything I feel about you because it would take too long. But, I love you, so much
6. I hate you, that's all
I'm showering. Goodnight