inconsistency
I'm listening to Jacques Brel and it's not doing anything for me. I used to feel so inspired, I used to understand him.
I'm not feeling anymore. My suitey, Alex, and I came to that conclusion tonight. She made the statement, to be correct. Funny, she's out and about this evening. Enjoying it all. Here I am. In my usual position, crumpled in front of the computer. Pathetic.
I feel like I'm always complaining. If it's not about my weight, it's about someone else. And, before long it will be about my weight again. I don't have the self control to get really serious and have an eating disorder or anything, but I hate myself when I complain.
I didn't go to rehearsal tonight. There is work to get done and things to be thought over. Lot's of things
Is it loneliness or a lack of allowing human interaction? fuck. where did 10 go? I want to get it back. all of it. everything.
I was going to cut my hair shorter, but that won't solve anything. Yea, I'm still kind of sane.
IS ANYONE ALIVE OUT THERE?
I'm not feeling anymore. My suitey, Alex, and I came to that conclusion tonight. She made the statement, to be correct. Funny, she's out and about this evening. Enjoying it all. Here I am. In my usual position, crumpled in front of the computer. Pathetic.
I feel like I'm always complaining. If it's not about my weight, it's about someone else. And, before long it will be about my weight again. I don't have the self control to get really serious and have an eating disorder or anything, but I hate myself when I complain.
I didn't go to rehearsal tonight. There is work to get done and things to be thought over. Lot's of things
Is it loneliness or a lack of allowing human interaction? fuck. where did 10 go? I want to get it back. all of it. everything.
I was going to cut my hair shorter, but that won't solve anything. Yea, I'm still kind of sane.
IS ANYONE ALIVE OUT THERE?