We used to be friends.
Hey you all,
I feel like I've reached the point where I dont need or, for a matter of fact, want anyone approval or help with my life. I dont feel honest in what I'm writting since quite a while. This journal started in Cal and was a nice way for me to keep souvenirs of my every-day life there.
Now I'm in England, lots of time has passed and I have changed. But I havent reflected that as much in here.
I guess I kept this journal to keep in touch with you on the other side of the world. It's not that I dont see the point anymore, but the one who cares find ways to talk to me otherwise. :-) Plus I dont like to re-read what I wrote, most of it doesnt feel right at all, honest, or true. Some entries were exagerated to get reactions or to touch someone. But I find this childish, dishonest and completely «inutile». This journal had become a habit. But sometimes it's nice to stand still and rethink about what matters and obviously this doesnt.
On the other hand I learnt that people here in England found about this journal. And made assumptions. You would think that at university people would learn that they shouldnt but oh well. lol I dont really care. So just so you all who care about my love life know: Nope, not in love with James. lol Nice gossip though.
So yeah even though I have nothing to hide I find weird to write things and know that anyone can read it and interpret it in some ways. I dont know just feel wrong and a bit privacy-stealer (even though I agreed to put my life out there so...). I guess I just changed my mind.
Now, Pel I'll keep talking to you on aim. I really dont wanna lose you and yes when we'll see each other you better hug me and make me fly in the air. And Charles find a freakin room so that I can come visit!!! I really wanna see the Exhibition that is now in the National Portrait Gallery so hurry!
If anyone else wants to keep in touch (I'll keep msn, aim and facebook for the moment :-)), email me at morgane_belgium@hotmail.com Dont add me on msn on this as I dont use the adress (only for stupid internet websites that need an email adress! Lol) but email me there and I'll add you on my everyday-use one.
Otherwise, to summarize those past 3 years : I have loved, I've hated and I've learned to move on. I have thought about stopping my studies. I have almost done it. I am know thinking about learning Dutch this summer and really find out where I'm heading. The world is full of opportunities, choices and different ways to live. I need to find what suits me, knowing that I can always change my mind.
I actually feel great and lucky to be where I am. The world is mine.
I feel like I've reached the point where I dont need or, for a matter of fact, want anyone approval or help with my life. I dont feel honest in what I'm writting since quite a while. This journal started in Cal and was a nice way for me to keep souvenirs of my every-day life there.
Now I'm in England, lots of time has passed and I have changed. But I havent reflected that as much in here.
I guess I kept this journal to keep in touch with you on the other side of the world. It's not that I dont see the point anymore, but the one who cares find ways to talk to me otherwise. :-) Plus I dont like to re-read what I wrote, most of it doesnt feel right at all, honest, or true. Some entries were exagerated to get reactions or to touch someone. But I find this childish, dishonest and completely «inutile». This journal had become a habit. But sometimes it's nice to stand still and rethink about what matters and obviously this doesnt.
On the other hand I learnt that people here in England found about this journal. And made assumptions. You would think that at university people would learn that they shouldnt but oh well. lol I dont really care. So just so you all who care about my love life know: Nope, not in love with James. lol Nice gossip though.
So yeah even though I have nothing to hide I find weird to write things and know that anyone can read it and interpret it in some ways. I dont know just feel wrong and a bit privacy-stealer (even though I agreed to put my life out there so...). I guess I just changed my mind.
Now, Pel I'll keep talking to you on aim. I really dont wanna lose you and yes when we'll see each other you better hug me and make me fly in the air. And Charles find a freakin room so that I can come visit!!! I really wanna see the Exhibition that is now in the National Portrait Gallery so hurry!
If anyone else wants to keep in touch (I'll keep msn, aim and facebook for the moment :-)), email me at morgane_belgium@hotmail.com Dont add me on msn on this as I dont use the adress (only for stupid internet websites that need an email adress! Lol) but email me there and I'll add you on my everyday-use one.
Otherwise, to summarize those past 3 years : I have loved, I've hated and I've learned to move on. I have thought about stopping my studies. I have almost done it. I am know thinking about learning Dutch this summer and really find out where I'm heading. The world is full of opportunities, choices and different ways to live. I need to find what suits me, knowing that I can always change my mind.
I actually feel great and lucky to be where I am. The world is mine.