happy holidays

[paisthereason]

my parents moved all their shit into the new house they thought they were going to buy, then the people who were going to buy my parent's old house decided to be shitbags and ended up not being able to get the loan they needed to buy my parent's house, so they spent all day saturday moving their shit back to their old house. so we still live in the same place, and i had to waste a day moving all that shit into a house that i'll probably never see again. fucking sucks. I don't know why i feel like i do right now... but i feel kinda... shitty? nervous? worried? i don't know. i just started thinking about what i'm going to do after next semester is over, and it's worrying me.. a lot. if all goes well, i really want to stay here this summer, and i think i could probably get a full time job at the place i'm working now for the summer, the only thing i'm worried about is where i'd be staying. again, if things keep going the way they're going, then i know where i'll be staying mostly, ( :) ) i'll basically just need a place to put my shit, which will just all around blow if i have to like rent something by myself and pay an absurd amount of money for it. it sucks that all my guy friends are seniors and won't be here this summer :( i know it's still a ways away, but i can't help but think about it now. i just want everything to work out. and knowing me, it won't, cause i'm really bad at getting shit like that lined up.

i need to reserve my books. and write some notes for my stats final tonight. info sci. final tomorrow and communication processes final on thursday. yay. fuck. why am i in such a shitty mood? i don't feel like typing anymore.