Too young to be really beautiful/ tiny buds of peridot and shoots of silver/ the raw sap of March
My mind is a kaleidoscope and this week it has been whirling convulsively. The colors shift from grey to almond to screeching halts and awkward interruptions back to teak and mauve and tender moments. Very inspiring, but less comfortable in my own head than I've felt in many months. Some of it is my own fault for being a changeful and experimenting creature, while other moments are the necessary adjustments for personal development and are really constructive wobbles. Today was my last day at Volta, I want to improve my home more than I have the money or ability for, and I feel lonely and stymied in most of my attempts to reach out to people. And nice, cheap, comfortable, attractive, used couches, they continue to elude me without mercy. Still, I do appreciate the urges to make both crafty art or artsy craft, but something with more mind and emotion and not just cuteness.
Settling down to edit and do school work is hard when I'd rather make art, or pout, or do 500 crunches or watch movies and eat oreos. Tonight I did the work I should have done yesterday and I've not read anything much for two days. But I've not allowed myself to stop working, hence I'm 17 pages through step one of editing my paper that's due next Sunday.
The good stuff has included:
a neat documentary on Pornography (Pornography The Secret History of Civilization)
a UF symphony performance
love
hearing someone offer to buy one of my terrariums
tangerine juice
reading about goddesses in a Jungian pop-psychology/self-help book
kitties and their cuddles
probably the best hand I'll ever have at bridge
boiled peanuts
finding the right blue/gray paint to do the touchups that the house needs along with the notes so more of it can be mixed
2nd best yard sale day ever (and that's really saying something)
Ideas in my head for jewelry and pretty paper collage stuff
While I'm here. Book List 2009
16. Beauty's Body Femininity and Representation in British Aestheticism by Kathy Psomiades. Good stuff, very useful. Not colorful or fantastic like the books I'm reading now, but very likely to be used in the dissertation.
17. The Aesthetic Movement Lionel Lambourne. Coffee table style book on the Aesthetic movement in its broadest sense. Good book with great art.
Can today be over yet? I'm tired.
Settling down to edit and do school work is hard when I'd rather make art, or pout, or do 500 crunches or watch movies and eat oreos. Tonight I did the work I should have done yesterday and I've not read anything much for two days. But I've not allowed myself to stop working, hence I'm 17 pages through step one of editing my paper that's due next Sunday.
The good stuff has included:
a neat documentary on Pornography (Pornography The Secret History of Civilization)
a UF symphony performance
love
hearing someone offer to buy one of my terrariums
tangerine juice
reading about goddesses in a Jungian pop-psychology/self-help book
kitties and their cuddles
probably the best hand I'll ever have at bridge
boiled peanuts
finding the right blue/gray paint to do the touchups that the house needs along with the notes so more of it can be mixed
2nd best yard sale day ever (and that's really saying something)
Ideas in my head for jewelry and pretty paper collage stuff
While I'm here. Book List 2009
16. Beauty's Body Femininity and Representation in British Aestheticism by Kathy Psomiades. Good stuff, very useful. Not colorful or fantastic like the books I'm reading now, but very likely to be used in the dissertation.
17. The Aesthetic Movement Lionel Lambourne. Coffee table style book on the Aesthetic movement in its broadest sense. Good book with great art.
Can today be over yet? I'm tired.