Ignore This Post
2 A.M.
My animatic still isn't even begun and it's due at noon. Christ, why do I do this? Instead of coming home tonight and actually working on anything, I have watched a movie, burst into tears over a Craigslist post, and become throughly disgusted with myself all the while "promising" myself it'll get done somehow. And it's not like my sitting here bitching at myself through LJ is going to fix it. No. I need to man up and do that myself.
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GET OFF THE INTERNET, WALLACE!
And now I'm going to post this for the whole world to read because I'm an imbecile.
God, I hate crying. I hate the way I feel afterwards- drained and hollow. The back of my throat kind of burns a little too. I should sleep, can't.
I feel like such a failure. Why can't I get myself motivated to do anything lately? I should be excited to be done with school and moving on and all- I'm terrified. And yeah, that's justified and all, but I can't help continuing to think that all I'm going to do is become a disappoint to myself and my parents. They work so hard, you know. All they want is for me to be happy- I feel ungrateful for not being happy.
Wow, my LJ has become a place for me to randomly become emo and get away with it. I should post something happy here for once.
I'm graduating at the end of the quarter! yay... right?
My animatic still isn't even begun and it's due at noon. Christ, why do I do this? Instead of coming home tonight and actually working on anything, I have watched a movie, burst into tears over a Craigslist post, and become throughly disgusted with myself all the while "promising" myself it'll get done somehow. And it's not like my sitting here bitching at myself through LJ is going to fix it. No. I need to man up and do that myself.
...
GET OFF THE INTERNET, WALLACE!
And now I'm going to post this for the whole world to read because I'm an imbecile.
God, I hate crying. I hate the way I feel afterwards- drained and hollow. The back of my throat kind of burns a little too. I should sleep, can't.
I feel like such a failure. Why can't I get myself motivated to do anything lately? I should be excited to be done with school and moving on and all- I'm terrified. And yeah, that's justified and all, but I can't help continuing to think that all I'm going to do is become a disappoint to myself and my parents. They work so hard, you know. All they want is for me to be happy- I feel ungrateful for not being happy.
Wow, my LJ has become a place for me to randomly become emo and get away with it. I should post something happy here for once.
I'm graduating at the end of the quarter! yay... right?