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i feel distant confused and lost. i dont know what i do or dont want. i dont know what to do or not to do. i lost my job. i never hear from certain people anymore. people tell me things i dont want to believe. i love all my friends even though they bring me down sometimes. parents will never understand. i miss my gramps. i feel polluted, tired and sick. i know that 2 + 2 = 4 but how far will that get me in life. i need to paint yet have no supplies. my chin is up but my eyes are looking down. im a walking contradiction. i miss courtney h. im calling her now. i hope she answers. she didnt. message left lol. oh well. today was a day. i went to the mall. got some clothes. yep. i g2g heart