Happy New Year. I guess. Hm?
Hey.
So, this is the new year. I don't feel any different. And hey, whoa.. I just quoted a song. Kinda.
When I get back to school I hope the seniors don't go overboard with yelling "Oh Fo" all of the time. I remember how annoying it was with the "Oh Three's." Blah.
I hate school and I'm dreading going back.. to new classes. Where once again I will be the weird girl that sits there and doesn't talk. The girl that usually knows all of the answers and that laughs when people get them wrong. Yea. That's me. I ususally have to sit in the back (my last name being Zachry and all.) in the corner. I don't talk to anyone in my academic classes because the majority of my friends are older or just not in my class. I'm not popular and all the kids just think I am weird.
Oh, yea. So.. what did I do for New Years' Eve? I laid in bed with Chris for the majority. The other part we were in Emily's back seat and he drooled on my hair and snored. Apparently everyone snores. Him. Me. Jazzy. Anyhow. I loved being with him for as long as we were together.
I didn't sleep much though. He fell asleep like.. 20 minutes into Aladdin because.. well.. he is lame. He started snoring too. And Jazzy. Eventually I fell asleep. I kept waking up though. And I had to move around a lot because my back hurt so bad.
And, Crystal would not leave me alone. She kept panting and her stomach kept growling. And then.. my fucking stomach started growling. And it hurt the rest of the day. Still hurts.
By the way, tomorrow is Crystal's birthday. The big 11. Yea.. for all of you that don't know. Crystal is a dog.
Well.. I have been in a "thinking" kind of mood lately. I don't really know why. Just.. ya know.. thinking about people, friends, old friends who are not just people I glance at to at least let them know that I am still Tara, family and how bitchy I am towards them, Chris and how lame I am towards him, and then there's my mom.. and how lazy I am when she needs help. Just how fucking lazy I am in general.
But, what the fuck is there to do in Riverview? Especially with no car. I mean.. I have friends with cars, but I hate depending on other people. I really do. I hate asking for favors.
I should just make an "I hate list."
I hate..
-Compliments.
-How "emo" is "LyKe So KewL" now.
-Halo.
-That scary girl from school. She is so creepy.
-School.
-Hats.
-Facial hair.
-When people punch me.
-How I can't take what anyone tells me.. good or bad.
-Flashlights.
-Lemonade.
-What I am thinking right now.
-"HxC."
-Cheerleaders.
-My back.
-My neck.
-My stomach.
-Girl singers.
-How I am so lazy.
-How I make Chris lay around because I am so lazy.
-How my dad says I have an eating disorder.
-When people say that I am beautiful.
-When people call me cute.
-Haggard (The movie.)
-Anal Cunt.
-This.
-The scene.
-Coldplay.
-Norma Jean.
-How I can't look people in the eyes.
-My hair.
-When guys are assholes.
-When guys compete to see who is better.
-When people expect something different from me. I don't really do anything spontaneous.
-How I am boring.
-How the flash on my camera is really bright.
-How my room is too dark.
-Jagged Edge.
-Yet again. What I am thinking right now.
-How I suck.
-That this list is so long.
-How I can't accomplish anything.
-That all of the sudden I am thinking this.
-Blowjobs and when the sluts in my class are like "OhEmGeE!!!11 I am LyKe SoooooooooOoo TotaLLy KeWL. I SuUuuuCked sOme GuY's PENIS. I am LyKe.. SooOO GunNna DO it Uhgaaaain. LoL!!!111@@@3324"
-What the hell I am talking about.
-That it's 2004. And.. I'm doing nothing.
-How you probably stopped reading after I talked about Chris drooling in my hair.
-How you know that sooner or later.. people will stop caring.
-How Chris lives far away.
-That I won't get my license until July.
-How I am so pathetic.
-My period.
-It when you're not here.
-How I sound like the biggest fuck alive.
-How I am too forward with people.
-How my computer has a virus.
I hate this list.
I think all of that was enough for tonight. And enough to make me feel better. I am a dumbass. I suck. I love you. Good night.
<3
So, this is the new year. I don't feel any different. And hey, whoa.. I just quoted a song. Kinda.
When I get back to school I hope the seniors don't go overboard with yelling "Oh Fo" all of the time. I remember how annoying it was with the "Oh Three's." Blah.
I hate school and I'm dreading going back.. to new classes. Where once again I will be the weird girl that sits there and doesn't talk. The girl that usually knows all of the answers and that laughs when people get them wrong. Yea. That's me. I ususally have to sit in the back (my last name being Zachry and all.) in the corner. I don't talk to anyone in my academic classes because the majority of my friends are older or just not in my class. I'm not popular and all the kids just think I am weird.
Oh, yea. So.. what did I do for New Years' Eve? I laid in bed with Chris for the majority. The other part we were in Emily's back seat and he drooled on my hair and snored. Apparently everyone snores. Him. Me. Jazzy. Anyhow. I loved being with him for as long as we were together.
I didn't sleep much though. He fell asleep like.. 20 minutes into Aladdin because.. well.. he is lame. He started snoring too. And Jazzy. Eventually I fell asleep. I kept waking up though. And I had to move around a lot because my back hurt so bad.
And, Crystal would not leave me alone. She kept panting and her stomach kept growling. And then.. my fucking stomach started growling. And it hurt the rest of the day. Still hurts.
By the way, tomorrow is Crystal's birthday. The big 11. Yea.. for all of you that don't know. Crystal is a dog.
Well.. I have been in a "thinking" kind of mood lately. I don't really know why. Just.. ya know.. thinking about people, friends, old friends who are not just people I glance at to at least let them know that I am still Tara, family and how bitchy I am towards them, Chris and how lame I am towards him, and then there's my mom.. and how lazy I am when she needs help. Just how fucking lazy I am in general.
But, what the fuck is there to do in Riverview? Especially with no car. I mean.. I have friends with cars, but I hate depending on other people. I really do. I hate asking for favors.
I should just make an "I hate list."
I hate..
-Compliments.
-How "emo" is "LyKe So KewL" now.
-Halo.
-That scary girl from school. She is so creepy.
-School.
-Hats.
-Facial hair.
-When people punch me.
-How I can't take what anyone tells me.. good or bad.
-Flashlights.
-Lemonade.
-What I am thinking right now.
-"HxC."
-Cheerleaders.
-My back.
-My neck.
-My stomach.
-Girl singers.
-How I am so lazy.
-How I make Chris lay around because I am so lazy.
-How my dad says I have an eating disorder.
-When people say that I am beautiful.
-When people call me cute.
-Haggard (The movie.)
-Anal Cunt.
-This.
-The scene.
-Coldplay.
-Norma Jean.
-How I can't look people in the eyes.
-My hair.
-When guys are assholes.
-When guys compete to see who is better.
-When people expect something different from me. I don't really do anything spontaneous.
-How I am boring.
-How the flash on my camera is really bright.
-How my room is too dark.
-Jagged Edge.
-Yet again. What I am thinking right now.
-How I suck.
-That this list is so long.
-How I can't accomplish anything.
-That all of the sudden I am thinking this.
-Blowjobs and when the sluts in my class are like "OhEmGeE!!!11 I am LyKe SoooooooooOoo TotaLLy KeWL. I SuUuuuCked sOme GuY's PENIS. I am LyKe.. SooOO GunNna DO it Uhgaaaain. LoL!!!111@@@3324"
-What the hell I am talking about.
-That it's 2004. And.. I'm doing nothing.
-How you probably stopped reading after I talked about Chris drooling in my hair.
-How you know that sooner or later.. people will stop caring.
-How Chris lives far away.
-That I won't get my license until July.
-How I am so pathetic.
-My period.
-It when you're not here.
-How I sound like the biggest fuck alive.
-How I am too forward with people.
-How my computer has a virus.
I hate this list.
I think all of that was enough for tonight. And enough to make me feel better. I am a dumbass. I suck. I love you. Good night.
<3