I'm Not Sure.
Hi.
I'd just like to say that I have no idea anymore.
About anything. Or anyone.
I don't know what's going on. Or who anyone is. I'm just so creeped out at who I have become.
This probably makes no sense today. But today I was talking to Ryan and I had forgotten how I used to have a crush on him. A big one. I like that I can still talk to him. Most guys that I had a "crush" on I never talk to anymore, mostly because they are complete jerks. Anyway, I consider him one of my good friends. I don't have too many. I even consider Hannah one of my good friends and I remember how much I used to be annoyed of her.
I feel like I've changed. But, I know I haven't. I'm still the same. Eh. Someone told me that I haven't changed since the day they met me, which was back in the seventh grade. They only said that I got "hotter." Hmph.
I think I have gotten smarter. But, in a way, I am a huge idiot. What am I doing?
Oh, completely off the subject, my dad got a raise. Maybe this will make him not so bitchy. He's worse than I am.
Anyway. Some people may see this as me being depressed. No. I am not depressed. Or even the least bit sad. Just completely confused.
People [in general] are such a great mystery to me. I feel like I hardly know any of my good friends. I realized I don't know as much about them as I thought.
I guess I am just venting. Writing makes me feel better. Not sure why. I can't talk to many people anymore. Not many people even know me anymore. I'm too complex of a person.
I'm not even sure why I would be saying all of these things when I will know exactly what's going on, who I am, and who everyone else is.
This all really makes no sense.
Adieu. ♥
I'd just like to say that I have no idea anymore.
About anything. Or anyone.
I don't know what's going on. Or who anyone is. I'm just so creeped out at who I have become.
This probably makes no sense today. But today I was talking to Ryan and I had forgotten how I used to have a crush on him. A big one. I like that I can still talk to him. Most guys that I had a "crush" on I never talk to anymore, mostly because they are complete jerks. Anyway, I consider him one of my good friends. I don't have too many. I even consider Hannah one of my good friends and I remember how much I used to be annoyed of her.
I feel like I've changed. But, I know I haven't. I'm still the same. Eh. Someone told me that I haven't changed since the day they met me, which was back in the seventh grade. They only said that I got "hotter." Hmph.
I think I have gotten smarter. But, in a way, I am a huge idiot. What am I doing?
Oh, completely off the subject, my dad got a raise. Maybe this will make him not so bitchy. He's worse than I am.
Anyway. Some people may see this as me being depressed. No. I am not depressed. Or even the least bit sad. Just completely confused.
People [in general] are such a great mystery to me. I feel like I hardly know any of my good friends. I realized I don't know as much about them as I thought.
I guess I am just venting. Writing makes me feel better. Not sure why. I can't talk to many people anymore. Not many people even know me anymore. I'm too complex of a person.
I'm not even sure why I would be saying all of these things when I will know exactly what's going on, who I am, and who everyone else is.
This all really makes no sense.
Adieu. ♥