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I have never been more stressed out in my life.
Senior year is supposed to be easy, minus the whole applying to college thing, and I really thought it was going to be a breeze because of my choice in classes, but I am soon finding out that I was horribly mistaken.
Not to mentioned being absolutely confused with everything college related, I am dealing with my internship, my job, my friends, my mother, college english essays, ap art, ap econ, other promises and commitments, lack of sleep, and an absolute lack of confidence.
I thought I was going to love my internship, but now I almost dread tuesdays and wednesdays.
I just feel like a complete novice and I hate it. This is not the career I want to go into, so I know I suck and will never be that good, and I am okay with that, I just don't know if they realize that, and I am sure they think I am a complete joke.
My fucking classes suck. I hate college english, and my professor, and these stupid ass essays we have to write. I am not in junior high anymore.
AP Econ is the absolute worst, and I literally got no higher than a 40 on my last test. And we have another one this week. And I am supposed to order a book and read some of it by thursday. She doesn't teach. She see's me everyday struggling, but still doesn't teach. I can't take it.
Don't even get me started on AP Art. Why the FUCK did I ever think I could take this class and do well in it? Nothing is turning out right and I am behind on all of my projects. Just thinking about it makes me want to scream.
I have also made promises and commitments to other people that I am not going to be able to keep because I just have absolutely no free time to get anything done.
Everything at once is just too much.
When do I get a break?