1st world problems
I am having a bad day Internet. I dropped out of the show I was doing. At the read-through we were finally given our parts, and I don't have a role, I'm just emsemble. Which is fine. Normally. What is different is that I'm entirely a dancer, and the only times I come on-stage are when they need a piece of ass to wear a bikini, or be a background "whore" or some other "pretty woman as a prop" part. It's pretty humiliating, and I'm not a strong dancer at all. You might even say I'm not a competent dancer haha. So I wrote a far more polite than what I was feeling email to the director letting him know I couldn't do it. So I'm a bad person, and most probably considered a diva. O well.
I started my new job, and so now at both restaurants I have to hear people encourage me by saying that "You're really cute, you'll be fine". Nevermind the fact that I've been in the workforce for almost ten years. Nevermind that I've had years of management experience, and that I work my ass off on a consistent basis. Or that I'm intelligent, organized and friendly. I'm cute. Goodie.
My friend wants me to hang out with him New Year's Eve because he says he wants some, "Arm candy." He's now used this phrase to refer to me 4 times in the past couple months.
So you see where I'm going with this whole thing?
I brought up to Travis how much this trend of ignoring my worth as a person to instead focus on my outside appearance and he told me to get over it. That I am cute, and while thats not my only good quality, I need to accept it and not get offended.
If feels so stupid to be upset that people think I'm attractive. But I could care less about that. Thats definitely not my life goal and it doesn't give me credit for absolutely anything about who I am and what I can do as a person.
Anyway. This is long winded and whiney. Goodbye
I started my new job, and so now at both restaurants I have to hear people encourage me by saying that "You're really cute, you'll be fine". Nevermind the fact that I've been in the workforce for almost ten years. Nevermind that I've had years of management experience, and that I work my ass off on a consistent basis. Or that I'm intelligent, organized and friendly. I'm cute. Goodie.
My friend wants me to hang out with him New Year's Eve because he says he wants some, "Arm candy." He's now used this phrase to refer to me 4 times in the past couple months.
So you see where I'm going with this whole thing?
I brought up to Travis how much this trend of ignoring my worth as a person to instead focus on my outside appearance and he told me to get over it. That I am cute, and while thats not my only good quality, I need to accept it and not get offended.
If feels so stupid to be upset that people think I'm attractive. But I could care less about that. Thats definitely not my life goal and it doesn't give me credit for absolutely anything about who I am and what I can do as a person.
Anyway. This is long winded and whiney. Goodbye