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okay so i'm gonna update this thing.
the trial with my cousin... went... awful, in my opinion. i feel terrible for not being able to be there. but like everyone keeps telling me, there's nothing i could've done there. i could've sat there and just stared and listened but... it could've been my last chance to see meghan and that absolutely kills me. i haven't seen her in so long i can hardly remember what she looks like, and i dont want her stupid parents to influence her decision on who she wants to see and who she doesn't. i'm really scared that i'm never going to see her again... the big trial is in 2 months, i want to be there but i highly doubt my parents will let me go. my mom will probably go but you know, band won't be excused for a trial that could change your life, you know? right. okay because that makes a lot of sense, kthx mr rhody.
i don't even know right now. the stupid camp and this whole meghan thing is totally stressing me out. my fingers are all torn up from biting them when i get anxious or nervous or upset about something. they're all... really really really gross.
today. i don't even know what i'm doing. it's my sister's 14th birthday, i tried calling my mom when i got up but she didn't answer her phone. i should try again soon--correction, i will try again soon after i complete my term as a productive member of society. so there's not much i can do considering she's in tallahassee and i'm... in murfreesboro. i want to go see a movie, but my best friend doesn't want to hang out with me and my dad's gonna leave in a bit to play golf so i'll be home all by myself for like 4 hours. mmmf. maybe i'll get some of my summer reading done fat chance
but please, remember me fondly
i heard from someone you're still pretty
and then they went on to say
that the pearly gates have some eloquent graffiti
like we will meet again
and fuck the man
and tell my mother not to worry
and angels with their gray shades
are always done in such a hurry
the trial with my cousin... went... awful, in my opinion. i feel terrible for not being able to be there. but like everyone keeps telling me, there's nothing i could've done there. i could've sat there and just stared and listened but... it could've been my last chance to see meghan and that absolutely kills me. i haven't seen her in so long i can hardly remember what she looks like, and i dont want her stupid parents to influence her decision on who she wants to see and who she doesn't. i'm really scared that i'm never going to see her again... the big trial is in 2 months, i want to be there but i highly doubt my parents will let me go. my mom will probably go but you know, band won't be excused for a trial that could change your life, you know? right. okay because that makes a lot of sense, kthx mr rhody.
i don't even know right now. the stupid camp and this whole meghan thing is totally stressing me out. my fingers are all torn up from biting them when i get anxious or nervous or upset about something. they're all... really really really gross.
today. i don't even know what i'm doing. it's my sister's 14th birthday, i tried calling my mom when i got up but she didn't answer her phone. i should try again soon--correction, i will try again soon after i complete my term as a productive member of society. so there's not much i can do considering she's in tallahassee and i'm... in murfreesboro. i want to go see a movie, but my best friend doesn't want to hang out with me and my dad's gonna leave in a bit to play golf so i'll be home all by myself for like 4 hours. mmmf. maybe i'll get some of my summer reading done fat chance
but please, remember me fondly
i heard from someone you're still pretty
and then they went on to say
that the pearly gates have some eloquent graffiti
like we will meet again
and fuck the man
and tell my mother not to worry
and angels with their gray shades
are always done in such a hurry