Just done.

[paintitblack]

We reconciled, for the grand total of a week. Still the old issues kept on cropping up. I felt like I was moving heaven and earth to keep things going, and she really didn't want to lift a finger to work towards saving things. It ended ugly, with a massive fight between us where we both got fed up and ended things. Bridges were burned, and past her giving me some of my things back this Friday it's over. I likely won't see her again.

Frankly, I stand by what I said previously. I'm getting too old for this dating and relationship bullshit. I completely suck at it anyway, so fuck dating and relationships. Maybe this makes me an ass of the highest caliber, but anyone who tries to get in this time gets shoved away so fast their head will spin. Fuck letting anyone get that close to me, ever again. It's never been worth it to me and never will be. I've got a rare sports car to get back on the road to honor the memory of my friend. I have another sports car to buy and restore to complete the set I've been wanting for many, many years now. Only this time I have the benefit of having the resources to make it happen.

Fuck having hope I'll meet that special someone, and fuck this stupid holiday celebrating that bullshit. It doesn't exist. Just a stupid fucking delusion that people think will make an improvement in their lives.