Happy Birthday
Happy Birthday to Johann Sebastian Bach....
I'm tired, I'm sick, but I must realize that I only have 23 more days until I come home for Easter...
And hey, maybe some people will come and look at Madison and I won't be so sad.
I think I've finally figured out that I can't please everyone and still be happy with myself. In fact, I've figured out that I've been acting so stupid, trying to be someone I'm not for some people....So guess what? I'm done.
The next time Nic calls, I will be breaking up with him. It's not fair to him for me to be in this and not have my heart in it. I love him, but I just can't give up the next 4 years to be alone. I won't make myself so sad...
Also, I've figured out that I do like hanging out with some people from Central, and that isn't wrong at all. I don't have to completely cut myself off from them, and at the same time, I don't have to keep up relationships with people I don't really like....HA!
In the past few weeks, I've been loosing my mind. With my dad, my mom, Linda, my aunt Laura, and me...there's been far more than enough to push me over the edge, but now, I'm ready just to take it one day at a time...No, I'm not in AA, but I will take one of their mantras...If it's good enough for alcoholics, it's good enough for me.
I'm ready to finish this semester and come home, but I'll try not to hate it here so damn much.
I'm ready to start my own life now, and sick of living for other people.
So, I'm thinking of taking a trip this summer....to Seattle....any takers? Just thought I'd throw that out there...I like the thought of just going someplace I've never been and thinking for a week.
Yea, I guess that's it for now....I need to get dressed and get to class, and I know I'm skipping finance today...I'm too damn sick to sit through it.
Oh yea, it's Matthew Broderick's birthday as well....Yay for him and Bach!
I'm tired, I'm sick, but I must realize that I only have 23 more days until I come home for Easter...
And hey, maybe some people will come and look at Madison and I won't be so sad.
I think I've finally figured out that I can't please everyone and still be happy with myself. In fact, I've figured out that I've been acting so stupid, trying to be someone I'm not for some people....So guess what? I'm done.
The next time Nic calls, I will be breaking up with him. It's not fair to him for me to be in this and not have my heart in it. I love him, but I just can't give up the next 4 years to be alone. I won't make myself so sad...
Also, I've figured out that I do like hanging out with some people from Central, and that isn't wrong at all. I don't have to completely cut myself off from them, and at the same time, I don't have to keep up relationships with people I don't really like....HA!
In the past few weeks, I've been loosing my mind. With my dad, my mom, Linda, my aunt Laura, and me...there's been far more than enough to push me over the edge, but now, I'm ready just to take it one day at a time...No, I'm not in AA, but I will take one of their mantras...If it's good enough for alcoholics, it's good enough for me.
I'm ready to finish this semester and come home, but I'll try not to hate it here so damn much.
I'm ready to start my own life now, and sick of living for other people.
So, I'm thinking of taking a trip this summer....to Seattle....any takers? Just thought I'd throw that out there...I like the thought of just going someplace I've never been and thinking for a week.
Yea, I guess that's it for now....I need to get dressed and get to class, and I know I'm skipping finance today...I'm too damn sick to sit through it.
Oh yea, it's Matthew Broderick's birthday as well....Yay for him and Bach!