my head today....
Lots of stress...my head is filled to the top with thoughts...no boredom. "sigh" but I'm taken time out to breathe anyways...i have too...if you stop breathing you'll die ^_- Besides their isn't anything i couldn't learn from and get passed. My mother gave me a box with a scripture on it when i was about 8...she made me memorize it..."He hath made everything beautiful in his time" I always felt that meant everything happens for a reason and within the right time...nothing is given to me i cannot handle. I don't believe in god. But i believe that life wont give us more than we're capable of taking in. We are ready...we're always ready...but we need to make the choice to use that. I believe all this shit is happening for a reason...i don't understand it. I hate it. But looking back I'm learning from it...and I'll understand better for my future. When my patience is tried and my head is heavy with life...I'll breathe. Because without air...what is the point to living? "deep breath" I want to always be able to turn my anger, frustration, and sorrow into love...because love was meant to describe all those things and more. Love can be found everywhere...in humiliation, fear, anger, lust, deep sorrow...love is everything...it's the emotion that creates other emotions. To feel such deep emotional response you must of loved it at one point...or at least wanted it. I'm learning from my mistakes. And loving the pain...maybe i'm just a masochist. haha it's possible. Or maybe i just prefer to see things more beautifully. "sigh" okay off to drink some juice/ or wine...haven't decided yet maybe both o.0 and read. goodnight friends and to those i've never met...maybe i will one day...the friends i haven't yet become friends with. Night-
