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I should be getting ready for work, so I'll try to keep this short...
I've been asked to volunteer to teach a high-school art class once a week at a christian private school in our area (bad economy= poor private schools= asking teachers to volunteer). I've never taught a class who were older than about 7, most of my teaching experience is one-on-one with young children. I've never had to put together a curriculum - which I WOULD do, because they can't afford to purchase one, and I probably wouldn't like it if they did - and quite frankly, teenagers scare me a bit. I know I CAN do this. I know it actually won't be hard... and it's only one day a week. I've been having a really, really hard time doing STUFF and being with PEOPLE for the past few months, so part of me wants to say no and hide under my little rock. Part of me is very willing to give it a try and see what happens... but I've been so deeply in my own head lately that the insecurity and jitters are confusing me. What if some of the students have attitude toward me? What if I loose their attention? What if they are actually better artists than I am already? What if I come with a prepared lesson and it take 10 minutes to teach and i have a full 45 minutes? Also, what if I have some random opportunity to do some traveling and I can't go because I've committed to teach this class? (Yeah, because that is SO LIKELY to happen!)
Anyhoo... I know it all sounds pretty pathetic, but I just wanted to bounce those thoughts around. I can't really talk it over with my mom any more, because her view is that they should be paying me and are taking advantage of me. They are paying gas money and will work around my real-job work schedule so I don't actually loose any paying work... so there is that at least.
I've been asked to volunteer to teach a high-school art class once a week at a christian private school in our area (bad economy= poor private schools= asking teachers to volunteer). I've never taught a class who were older than about 7, most of my teaching experience is one-on-one with young children. I've never had to put together a curriculum - which I WOULD do, because they can't afford to purchase one, and I probably wouldn't like it if they did - and quite frankly, teenagers scare me a bit. I know I CAN do this. I know it actually won't be hard... and it's only one day a week. I've been having a really, really hard time doing STUFF and being with PEOPLE for the past few months, so part of me wants to say no and hide under my little rock. Part of me is very willing to give it a try and see what happens... but I've been so deeply in my own head lately that the insecurity and jitters are confusing me. What if some of the students have attitude toward me? What if I loose their attention? What if they are actually better artists than I am already? What if I come with a prepared lesson and it take 10 minutes to teach and i have a full 45 minutes? Also, what if I have some random opportunity to do some traveling and I can't go because I've committed to teach this class? (Yeah, because that is SO LIKELY to happen!)
Anyhoo... I know it all sounds pretty pathetic, but I just wanted to bounce those thoughts around. I can't really talk it over with my mom any more, because her view is that they should be paying me and are taking advantage of me. They are paying gas money and will work around my real-job work schedule so I don't actually loose any paying work... so there is that at least.