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well, i had something of an epiphany this morning.
i was riding on the train and thinking about my situation vis a vis work. to recap: i don't think i can be a physical therapist for the rest of my career. it's causing too many problems. i'm not that physical and i'm only getting older. i'm having a problem with almost every part of my body. i'm pretty sure that i have a heel spur on the right. i can barely walk on it and i have to walk around all day. the left isnt' all that great either. i have back pain...have had it for several years. i've had a frozen shoulder in the past and now my left wrist is getting tingles. today walking to the train my shoulder that i carry my bags on, started to bother me. then there' my hip, my knees. i'm beginning to be quite a mess. i need to go and get these things all taken care of. I digress. My epiphany. So I'm thinking about all of this and how i wasn't always a physical therapist and how i'm really not ready to give it up even though i should. then it occurred to me that my life is better for having had the experience, that whatever i do in the future my course has been altered for the better by this experience and that i'm better overall in every way (except physically maybe!). I was able to reflect that i've had an attitude shift. Not my usual bitterness about my poor unfortunate self, no anger about what a pain in the ass finding a new career will be at this late time in life...none of the usual. i think i'm becoming happy! what do you know!
i was riding on the train and thinking about my situation vis a vis work. to recap: i don't think i can be a physical therapist for the rest of my career. it's causing too many problems. i'm not that physical and i'm only getting older. i'm having a problem with almost every part of my body. i'm pretty sure that i have a heel spur on the right. i can barely walk on it and i have to walk around all day. the left isnt' all that great either. i have back pain...have had it for several years. i've had a frozen shoulder in the past and now my left wrist is getting tingles. today walking to the train my shoulder that i carry my bags on, started to bother me. then there' my hip, my knees. i'm beginning to be quite a mess. i need to go and get these things all taken care of. I digress. My epiphany. So I'm thinking about all of this and how i wasn't always a physical therapist and how i'm really not ready to give it up even though i should. then it occurred to me that my life is better for having had the experience, that whatever i do in the future my course has been altered for the better by this experience and that i'm better overall in every way (except physically maybe!). I was able to reflect that i've had an attitude shift. Not my usual bitterness about my poor unfortunate self, no anger about what a pain in the ass finding a new career will be at this late time in life...none of the usual. i think i'm becoming happy! what do you know!