Christmas music is divine
Back in the Mt. P for one more week of school....dun dun dun....finals!!! I can't believe the semester is basically done. Relieved, yes, shocked, yes. It brings me to a very important decision making time though and I'm not prepared for that so its kinda scary. How do they expect you to know what you want to do for the rest of your life??? Geez oh peez! I think this Christmas break will be really good for me though. It'll give me some time to figure things out and get away from everything to just clear my head. Plus I'll be able to see the family which I am soooo excited about! It'll awesome to see cousin Bobby! I haven't seen him in far too long. It's hard to not see your family for years at a time. It definelty is a hard consequence to moving away. Its just something that has to be weighed out when making those choices.
Another wonderful part of break this year is I'm going to North Carolina to see Brad :-) I'm so excited! Even though it will only be for a few days, it will be so great to see him. Its crazy that we still talk as much as we do and visit once in a while. I wish we could live closer, but I figure that life happens as it will and I just have to have faith that God's plan for me will work out somehow. I just wish I had that kind of faith with the rest of my life. I'm so confused as to where I need to be right now. I have so many options, and a drive to do them all. I just don't have an overwhelming feeling to do one thing over the rest, which makes me second guess everything. I could stick it out here at cmu where i don't really like it, but i'd get a bachelors and if i left here odds are i woulnd't get a ba. i could leave at semester if i found a subleaser and go to macomb for culinary-if i didn't like it i could come back here in the fall. i could move home and go to the design school in troy. i could stay here and go to london. i could transfer to miami. So aka-totally lost with my life. I know I could do fashion or culinary if i put my mind to it, i just don't know which career would be better fit for me. i feel so much pressure coming from everywhere and i just don't want to let people down, let my parents down, let myself down. I wish I had a little angel to come down and tell me what to do with my life! Its funny bcuz most of the time, the signs are right there in front of you, but you can't see them. Am I missing something?? Could someone at least tell me that much?? hah Please?
I can't wait til vaca!
Another plus to vaca-I get to hang out with/annoy Michelle for 2 weeks straight!!! Score! hah
Another wonderful part of break this year is I'm going to North Carolina to see Brad :-) I'm so excited! Even though it will only be for a few days, it will be so great to see him. Its crazy that we still talk as much as we do and visit once in a while. I wish we could live closer, but I figure that life happens as it will and I just have to have faith that God's plan for me will work out somehow. I just wish I had that kind of faith with the rest of my life. I'm so confused as to where I need to be right now. I have so many options, and a drive to do them all. I just don't have an overwhelming feeling to do one thing over the rest, which makes me second guess everything. I could stick it out here at cmu where i don't really like it, but i'd get a bachelors and if i left here odds are i woulnd't get a ba. i could leave at semester if i found a subleaser and go to macomb for culinary-if i didn't like it i could come back here in the fall. i could move home and go to the design school in troy. i could stay here and go to london. i could transfer to miami. So aka-totally lost with my life. I know I could do fashion or culinary if i put my mind to it, i just don't know which career would be better fit for me. i feel so much pressure coming from everywhere and i just don't want to let people down, let my parents down, let myself down. I wish I had a little angel to come down and tell me what to do with my life! Its funny bcuz most of the time, the signs are right there in front of you, but you can't see them. Am I missing something?? Could someone at least tell me that much?? hah Please?
I can't wait til vaca!
Another plus to vaca-I get to hang out with/annoy Michelle for 2 weeks straight!!! Score! hah