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it's moday night I didn't have school today, woop.
lately I've been having mood swings, one day I'm happy and productive, the next I'm likee fuckk it.
I love that kat got her license, something about driving with your friends alone is so liberating. Knowing you can go anywhere, and do it yourself. I love hanging out with my friends now. I have the perfect balance of them all. I think I need to spend more time on studying though. I owe it to my parents to get good grades this year, I owe it to myself, so I figure I should really start trying my hardest, and to get all the credits I need to make up so I can graduate this year. I should really take the PSATS, but I forgot to sign up, which kind of sucked, because I know my parents really wanted me to take them, just in case, even though I am a senior, but I forgot, as always.
I need to get more organized.
I get mad so easily, at the things Michael lets Jessica get away with, I can't believe she played the race card, what an ignorant idiot. She is so manipulative and forward, aggressive with him, and he likes it. He lets her be. He doesn't stand up forhimself to her. Even though they're broken up, they talk all the time. Which, I guess is none of my business, and I should be happy that they are still friends. However, I hate her more than pickles and tomatoes.
I hate how Michael jumps out on any girl he meets or hangs out with. He smothers them, he offers to spend money on them in hope it will make them like him more. He is so weak, he needs someone to support him. He scared Julia off. I kinda think he is going to do the same thing to Anna, but I don't think Anna even thinks about michael that way. He just needs to chill out, he has so much time. I wish he would go to school too, my parents are paying for those classes and he lies to them and tells them he's going. He seems so happy hanging out with his friends and all, I think he is having a hard time finding out who he is, and who he wants to be. I'm tired of supporting him and Jessica though, I don't think I could handle them going out again. She's not worth my time, yet I feel like I have to defend myself, because she just keeps running her mouth, and michael keeps hearing it. I want to be there for him, I want to make the right decisions for him. I guess I'm spending too much time thinking about what would happen to me if he associates with jessica. I really want him to be happy, I really do.
Mary and Brian broke up, mary likes Andrew.
I talked to Alex's EX today, I shouldn't have said anything, I was out of place.
I keep writing poetry at school and on the train. I get inspired and write anything, my friends really like my poetry. It's a way to express myself and not being too obvious with what I'm feeling
I'm going to NY with Chels for X-mas. I'm excited and I <3 Chelsea. I really want to hug her sometimes and just squeeze the shit out of her and tell her everything will turn out OK in the end. I think Chelsea is truely the only person I can trust. I know her better than alot of people, and sometimes I think she is pushing me away cause I know her so well, and she isn't used to that. I also think she likes that. We're like sisters, I really like that.
I'm really going to try to eat healthy this week....no junky poop. ;/
I have razor burn and it burns :[
my eyes burn >;[
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