fuck it all
i dont know, im just so done. i know no one reads this stupid thing and i dont even care. i just need to vent really badly. im sick of feeling like this, i need to get some sort of help, someone to talk to, i need a friend so bad.
im sick of my pregnant friend doing coke and lying about it to me.
im sick of feeling like i need a man in my life to make myself stable.
im sick of trying to figure out who i am.
im sick of feeling like a piece of shit because i dont have a good job, dont make a lot of money, and i have a million bills to worry about.
im sick of having no one to talk to.
im sick of missing skye. im sick of looking in all the wrong places for love.
im sick of not knowing what to do with mark. im sick of pushing him away and making him feel bad.
im sick of waking up every morning and wishing that i never had to wake up again.
i just need someone. but thats not going to happen. because who is out there? no one that i know of.
im sick of my mom nagging on me like there is no tomorrow. yeah, i feel like shit. GET OVER IT. this is me and this is the way i am. and she fucking hates how im always depressed. well fuck you. dont you think im sick of being depressed too? dont you think im sick of cutting my skin trying to feel something? just trying to feel alive? no one understands, and i dont even care anymore. if my life was worth anything at all i would be going somewhere right now. but im stuck going in circles. so fuck it, i hate everything, i hate you, i hate me, i hate life. im done.
im sick of my pregnant friend doing coke and lying about it to me.
im sick of feeling like i need a man in my life to make myself stable.
im sick of trying to figure out who i am.
im sick of feeling like a piece of shit because i dont have a good job, dont make a lot of money, and i have a million bills to worry about.
im sick of having no one to talk to.
im sick of missing skye. im sick of looking in all the wrong places for love.
im sick of not knowing what to do with mark. im sick of pushing him away and making him feel bad.
im sick of waking up every morning and wishing that i never had to wake up again.
i just need someone. but thats not going to happen. because who is out there? no one that i know of.
im sick of my mom nagging on me like there is no tomorrow. yeah, i feel like shit. GET OVER IT. this is me and this is the way i am. and she fucking hates how im always depressed. well fuck you. dont you think im sick of being depressed too? dont you think im sick of cutting my skin trying to feel something? just trying to feel alive? no one understands, and i dont even care anymore. if my life was worth anything at all i would be going somewhere right now. but im stuck going in circles. so fuck it, i hate everything, i hate you, i hate me, i hate life. im done.