Today I died...
Today I have lost another friend....
She hates me because I tried so hard to do what was right, & in the end I've been savaged for it. I loved him too much to let go of hope, & now I suffer for that sin.
Today I cried....
I don't have anything left to offer or to give or anything except for falling to my knees and begging someone to come back to me, to talk to me, not to leave me, not to hate me. I will never be myself ever again... I will never be alive again. I'm not alive just hiding here, just laying here waiting to die...
Today I died....
I am no longer living. I am no longer living, no longer happy, no longer walking with pride... I've given it up. I am broken, shattered, crushed, demolished, destroyed. Take your jabs at me, call me named... Bring me to Hell faster. You can only live so long physically with a broken heart... Tick tock... Tick tock. That's all I'm hearing now as I stare at my clock wondering when I will finally get to be with him.
Or many I'm not going to go to Hell... Maybe I'm just going to disappear... Maybe there is no Heaven or Hell or God or anything to do with that. I wanted to say goodbye, to hear that he loved me one last time... I didn't even get that.... I won't ever get that... That's my goal, my unfinished business if you believe in that.
I'm so sick of being there for other people... I'm so sick of being shit on time after time after time. I'm sick of being walked on in fear of losing people... but that's all I've got left to do. Walk on me. Shit on me. Kick in the face.
I'm not the person you once knew.... I don't exist anymore...
She hates me because I tried so hard to do what was right, & in the end I've been savaged for it. I loved him too much to let go of hope, & now I suffer for that sin.
Today I cried....
I don't have anything left to offer or to give or anything except for falling to my knees and begging someone to come back to me, to talk to me, not to leave me, not to hate me. I will never be myself ever again... I will never be alive again. I'm not alive just hiding here, just laying here waiting to die...
Today I died....
I am no longer living. I am no longer living, no longer happy, no longer walking with pride... I've given it up. I am broken, shattered, crushed, demolished, destroyed. Take your jabs at me, call me named... Bring me to Hell faster. You can only live so long physically with a broken heart... Tick tock... Tick tock. That's all I'm hearing now as I stare at my clock wondering when I will finally get to be with him.
Or many I'm not going to go to Hell... Maybe I'm just going to disappear... Maybe there is no Heaven or Hell or God or anything to do with that. I wanted to say goodbye, to hear that he loved me one last time... I didn't even get that.... I won't ever get that... That's my goal, my unfinished business if you believe in that.
I'm so sick of being there for other people... I'm so sick of being shit on time after time after time. I'm sick of being walked on in fear of losing people... but that's all I've got left to do. Walk on me. Shit on me. Kick in the face.
I'm not the person you once knew.... I don't exist anymore...