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[paintedbliss]

So I didn't have something to do today in second hour.
I let my mind wander, and this is what it had to say.

I can't decide what to do next.
Where do I want to go?
What do I want to evolve into?
There are so many choices
Too many things that I want to be done.
How will I accomplish any?
I have the drive to do all these things,
but when I think of all the things I actually want to do,
I completely shut down and my mind goes blank.
I don't want to throw my life away. I want to be
active,
outgoing.
Involved.
Living to my fullest.
Expanding my mind.
Taking care of my body.
I want to work out.
Be in shape.
Show that I am strong and I can survive life.
I have survived so much so far.
I can fight my battles. I may not always win. But I fight.
My mind may not be average.
But I kind of like it that way.
becuase I am not average.
I am not a drone that goes through
"the motions" day by day.
Unexpected things will always come
my way.
But it keeps me on my toes.
and it keeps me strong.
Making me strong with each day I survive.
I may not have life mastered,
and I may never master it.
but this life is mine.
and I intend to keep it that way.