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what is with the advertisements on my lj? i don like it.
Kipp and I can move in together if we can find someone to move in with Cory... and i doubt that'll happen so it looks like we'll have to wait until August which sucks. I'm not happy in my living situation. I really want a place thats just for Kipp and me. Anyways it'll come soon enough.
I've realized something about myself and I don't like it all. When I get around large groups of people I don't know I go into my perverbial shell. Kipp pointed it out in a not so loving way which lead to a rough night. Things are better. I get so emotional at night and when I'm on my period its like a triple whammy. I probably cried every day for the past week for reasons I'm not sure of any more... but it mattered at the time. So I've decided to get over my weirdness around strangers. It's not all the time. Just some people really intimidate me. And I don't get shy so much as I just can't think of anything relevant to say. I get quiet. And I complain too much. The whole night was bad and it just made me feel like i just suck. i don't know though. now I'm just kind of mad that I allowed myself to feel that way.
on more positive notes:
I'm so glad that Jim and talked tonight! it was fun. Some how we always end up talking about sex. It's completely innocent though.
speaking of which!!
I'm so excited that I get to have sex on monday!!<3
Kipp and I can move in together if we can find someone to move in with Cory... and i doubt that'll happen so it looks like we'll have to wait until August which sucks. I'm not happy in my living situation. I really want a place thats just for Kipp and me. Anyways it'll come soon enough.
I've realized something about myself and I don't like it all. When I get around large groups of people I don't know I go into my perverbial shell. Kipp pointed it out in a not so loving way which lead to a rough night. Things are better. I get so emotional at night and when I'm on my period its like a triple whammy. I probably cried every day for the past week for reasons I'm not sure of any more... but it mattered at the time. So I've decided to get over my weirdness around strangers. It's not all the time. Just some people really intimidate me. And I don't get shy so much as I just can't think of anything relevant to say. I get quiet. And I complain too much. The whole night was bad and it just made me feel like i just suck. i don't know though. now I'm just kind of mad that I allowed myself to feel that way.
on more positive notes:
I'm so glad that Jim and talked tonight! it was fun. Some how we always end up talking about sex. It's completely innocent though.
speaking of which!!
I'm so excited that I get to have sex on monday!!<3