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aight, so. i break up with her like, a week ago. we got back together for a day, and then i dumped her again because i realized all she really wanted was a physical relationship. whatever. relationships are lame.
i'm getting an apartment with alyse. i'm eighteen in twenty-three days, so she has to wait 'til then, but it's all good. it gives us time to save up some money and get the essentials for the apartment. the only problem with this whole thing is that now, i can't get involved with her. i don't think i could date someone i have to live with and share rent with, etc... trust me, that doesn't mean i don't want to. i still have major feelings for her...
i just wish i could read her mind! she fucks with my head so much. we can't go a day without at least talking to each other. sometimes we even go out of our way just to hang out, even if it's just for a cigarette and a couple minutes of conversation or the five hours before sunrise... she told me a few months ago that i was becoming more of a friend, then when i asked her "why" about a month ago, she tells me she isn't sure, but a major part was that she was afraid of being my first girlfriend. well, she doesn't have that excuse anymore.
i shouldn't even be thinking about this. i just said that i couldn't get involved with her. why do i have to overanalyze everything?
lame.
i'm getting an apartment with alyse. i'm eighteen in twenty-three days, so she has to wait 'til then, but it's all good. it gives us time to save up some money and get the essentials for the apartment. the only problem with this whole thing is that now, i can't get involved with her. i don't think i could date someone i have to live with and share rent with, etc... trust me, that doesn't mean i don't want to. i still have major feelings for her...
i just wish i could read her mind! she fucks with my head so much. we can't go a day without at least talking to each other. sometimes we even go out of our way just to hang out, even if it's just for a cigarette and a couple minutes of conversation or the five hours before sunrise... she told me a few months ago that i was becoming more of a friend, then when i asked her "why" about a month ago, she tells me she isn't sure, but a major part was that she was afraid of being my first girlfriend. well, she doesn't have that excuse anymore.
i shouldn't even be thinking about this. i just said that i couldn't get involved with her. why do i have to overanalyze everything?
lame.