CAN I VENT?
PLEASE AND THANK YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
im probably gonna sound newbie and desperate but honestly, i don't give a fck.
OK.
IM FREAKING JEALOUS THAT EVERYONE I KNOW IS GOING TO THE IDOL TOUR AND POSSIBLY ABLE TO MEET THEM WHERE, ME, HERE, ISNT GOING!!! I LIVE IN THE FREAKING U.S FOR CRYING OUT LOUD AND THEY ARE GOING TO MY STATE, SO WHY SHOULDN'T I BE ABLE TO GO? HUH? HUH?
WELL MY DAD'S LIKE "WE HAVE NO GOD DAMN MONEY, VANESSA! YOUR LUCKY ENOUGH TO BE ALIVE!" AND BLAH BLAH BLAH! CAUSING ME TO BECOME EVEN MORE FREAKING DEPRESSED! HE KNOWS I FREAKING LOVE DAVID SO I WHY CANT I GO? THE TICKETS PRBLY DONT EVEN COST THAT MUCH. 50-60-70-80 MAYBE!
I JUST WANNA CRY LIKE SSRLY. I WANT TO SEE DAVID SO BAD.I'VE NEVER BEEN TO A CONCERT IN MY LIFE AND THIS WOULD BE COOL OF A START. I ALSO WANNA GO TO ONE BEFORE I GET TO OLD [lol well you know what i mean, teenage years] NO ONE UNDERSTANDS! MY SISTER HAD 1000 DOLLARS AND HAD TO GIVE IT AWAY TO MY MOM SO SHE CAN PAY FOR THE STUPID DIVORCE!!!!!! SHE ALSO HAS TO SELL HER CAR. ]:
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i feel like such a FAKE FAN
i wanted to see JB; never did; never will
I wanted to see MC/JB; never did; not possible anymore
wanted to see MC by herself; never did; dont want to
wanted to go to AI's LAST YEAR; cried coz i couldnt't
[basically backwards in order of date. top one is recent]
AHHH. I WANNA GO SO BAD. IM CRYING RIGHT NOW. ]:
ANYONE HAVE 100 DOLLARS? [jk jk]
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oh well.
ill just be a fake fan
everyone's going but me
ill be jealous
and miss out. specially on AF.
ok, its coming back. the angry..jealous..THE FUSTRATION!
I HATE LIFEE. SERIOUSLY.
nothing ever goes out the way i want it to!
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
I'm such a freak, iddiot, newbie, retard, gay, stupid, ugly, fatass, fake, dumb, spoiled, bratty, BITCH!
i wanna ask again. maybe to my mom, but im so flippin scared.
what do i do?
-sigh-