October brought dark clouds...
oooooooooo i had such an amazing weekend!!!!! I went to Dark Skies, a festival on a dried up lake out in the middle of the desert :D It was if we were camping on the moon!!!! People were walking around naked and everyone would smile and say hello to you. It was like visiting another country or going to a small village where everyone greets you with a smile!! So different from the unfriendly atmosphere of Las Vegas. Wooooooowww!!! I can't wait to go next year! I went with my mom, and two of my sisters. We danced all night long to "rave" music. Ooooo it was soooo cool!
The night I came home was haunting though :(((( I was anxious about going back to work and I awoke 3 times during the night, jumping out of my sleep wanting to scream, I cried in Jason's arms from so many bad dreams :(((( He stayed awake though, to make sure I was breathing normally. I had claustrophobic dreams, rape dreams, someone stole my cell phone in my dream because they did not want me to call Jason if I was in trouble.... haunting nightmares...I'm just not used to them. I'm so glad Jason was next to me though :)))
I applied for an apartment last Friday and they denied me because of my credit. Grrrrrr, I'm never going to get my own place!!!!! That is all I want right now...I have to save up a lot more money now. **sigh** The future just seems so hopeless.
The night I came home was haunting though :(((( I was anxious about going back to work and I awoke 3 times during the night, jumping out of my sleep wanting to scream, I cried in Jason's arms from so many bad dreams :(((( He stayed awake though, to make sure I was breathing normally. I had claustrophobic dreams, rape dreams, someone stole my cell phone in my dream because they did not want me to call Jason if I was in trouble.... haunting nightmares...I'm just not used to them. I'm so glad Jason was next to me though :)))
I applied for an apartment last Friday and they denied me because of my credit. Grrrrrr, I'm never going to get my own place!!!!! That is all I want right now...I have to save up a lot more money now. **sigh** The future just seems so hopeless.