Life
So here it is my 33rd Birthday. I know that I am not where I want to be. I am with a wonderful man who is my match in every way I can think of. He is wonderful to me and my girls he accepts us for who we are. Which is fantastic and way more than I could of hoped for. He is my rock and my strength, my king and my anchor, He is now what keeps me grounded and he knows how to make me smile even on my worst days. But I am not happy with me I know I would like to lose some weight not alot but enough to feel better. I know that medically I need to take care of a few things to help me feel better too. I would like to have a job something part time where I could help people during the hours the girls are at school. I want something productive where I can use my skills to help people and take care of them. I want to be able to learn how to let go of things that I cant change and to stop expecting so much of people that wont change or refuse to change. I also need to learn to accept the fact that my children are growing and becoming their own people. especially Kaitlyn she is so big and so beautiful and she is becoming her own woman and we fight (god I hate it ) but we fight. I know that she is seeking the boundaries and more independence from me. Its hard for me to let go of her she has been there for me for so long, she has been my rock, the one person the only one for a long time that could keep me grounded. She is so awesome and unbelievably intelligent she has just lost the drive to do the things she used to love which I dont understand sometimes but she is who she is and I love her just the same. Raivyn is coming into her own too she is developing a personality unfortunately much like my own which could be very scary later on for me cause they say you fight the most with the one most like you. She is going into the third grade and she's so smart. But back to the birthday I was taken shopping for a new outfit, given roses, taken out to dinner of my choice, and given cake all by my wonderful man and accompanied by my wonderful, beautiful daughters it was one of the most wonderful birthdays I have had in a long time.