Nov 09, 2005 16:09
I used to rely on self medication I guess I still do that from time to time but I'm getting better at fighting the future
Today was just one of those days...you know the kind that never ends and completely blows.
And dude mentioned yesterday came up to me and just put his arm around me and was like *hey you* so I turned around, threw his arm off of me and went *...yeah?*
The only highlights is knowing we have a place in Kitty Hawk for a week, only it sucks because we have it from June 16-23. And we have to get out on the 23 cause someone else is coming in and grad isn't until the 17th. So either we'll go down on the afternoon of the 18th or first thing monday morning and then that weekend we're going to stay in a hotel. It's going to kick ass no matter what. Unless of course I can't find someone to take with me...
*i'm not smiling behind this fake veneer
i am often interrupted or completely ignored
but most of all i'm bored
i'm trying to find out if my words have any meaning
lackluster and full of contempts when it always ends the same
why won't you listen to me
why did i come
oh why did i come here
these humans all suck
i'd rather be home feeling violent and lonely
i'm not trying to sound so insincere
but the postcard that's taped to the freezer reads "wish you were here"
how i wish i could disappear
i'm trying to find out if my words have any meaning*