"Sakende mo ii tsutawaru made tsutaete..."
Christmas break ^^
Started off slow, but I've gotten to see more people. Woke my BC up one morning by going to her house and jumping on her XD it was funny lol. Had lunch with her and Cookie which was just like the summer and that was fun. Spent a lovely evening with my favourite Beme. I'm glad to be home and see everyone, it's nice to catch up with everyone.
I miss my Charleston hardcore though. I miss the people mostly and the city...goodness...I was definately made to go there. I love it so much. I wish this break wasn't so long :'-( I can't wait to get back there.
Ever have one of those times when there's so much you want to say...but you can't, you won't, or you shouldn't? Bleh...that'd be now.
Odd as it is...Cayla and I (after filling each other in on the last little while) had a talk about marriage. I realized that while I'm not at the point I'm looking to get married, that when I really consider something serious with someone, that I really know in my heart could work, that I actually think about if I could marry them...if I could see myself living the life I would have to with them. I noticed myself doing that the last week and a few times when I talked with Karen before we left for break. It made me realize just how much I would be willing to sacrifice for the person I loved so much I wanted to marry them. It kind of makes me smile ^^ Lol...luckily I don't have to worry about all that and marriage for awhile :-P I'm at least getting out of college first.
Oh well ^^ I'll just cross my fingers that my current situation works out and that either way it'll make me happy ^^ I think maybe it will, or at least has a good chance to. I think it was Karen and I who talked about it, but it seems like the one time you try someone different, that is completely different from anyone you were involved with before, it actually works better then anything you were attracted to before. I guess that goes to show that you can't always trust yourself to know what's best for you :-P
Life is not the past, nor the future, but the moment now. Forgive the past, forget the future, live for now and you'll be happy. Don't regret the past, don't do anything to mess up your future, do the right thing now. Remember the past, dream for the future, and love what you have now because you never know when it may just be the best thing that will ever come along.
"aenai jikan ni omoi ga tsunotta
todokenai koe ni kokoro ga itanda
kimi wo shiranakatta koro ni modorenaku natte ita
dou ka sonna fuu ni
sabishige na hitomi de
kowaresou ni kiesou ni warawanaide
nee boku ni ha nani ga dekiru
aenai jikan ni omoi ga tsunotta
todokenai koe ni kokoro ga itanda
kimi wo shiranakatta koro ni modorenaku natte iru
doushite tokidoki sunao ni ienai
doushite tokidoki yasashiku narenai
doushite tokidoki kizutsuke-atteru
doushite tokidoki tashika me-atteru"
Started off slow, but I've gotten to see more people. Woke my BC up one morning by going to her house and jumping on her XD it was funny lol. Had lunch with her and Cookie which was just like the summer and that was fun. Spent a lovely evening with my favourite Beme. I'm glad to be home and see everyone, it's nice to catch up with everyone.
I miss my Charleston hardcore though. I miss the people mostly and the city...goodness...I was definately made to go there. I love it so much. I wish this break wasn't so long :'-( I can't wait to get back there.
Ever have one of those times when there's so much you want to say...but you can't, you won't, or you shouldn't? Bleh...that'd be now.
Odd as it is...Cayla and I (after filling each other in on the last little while) had a talk about marriage. I realized that while I'm not at the point I'm looking to get married, that when I really consider something serious with someone, that I really know in my heart could work, that I actually think about if I could marry them...if I could see myself living the life I would have to with them. I noticed myself doing that the last week and a few times when I talked with Karen before we left for break. It made me realize just how much I would be willing to sacrifice for the person I loved so much I wanted to marry them. It kind of makes me smile ^^ Lol...luckily I don't have to worry about all that and marriage for awhile :-P I'm at least getting out of college first.
Oh well ^^ I'll just cross my fingers that my current situation works out and that either way it'll make me happy ^^ I think maybe it will, or at least has a good chance to. I think it was Karen and I who talked about it, but it seems like the one time you try someone different, that is completely different from anyone you were involved with before, it actually works better then anything you were attracted to before. I guess that goes to show that you can't always trust yourself to know what's best for you :-P
Life is not the past, nor the future, but the moment now. Forgive the past, forget the future, live for now and you'll be happy. Don't regret the past, don't do anything to mess up your future, do the right thing now. Remember the past, dream for the future, and love what you have now because you never know when it may just be the best thing that will ever come along.
"aenai jikan ni omoi ga tsunotta
todokenai koe ni kokoro ga itanda
kimi wo shiranakatta koro ni modorenaku natte ita
dou ka sonna fuu ni
sabishige na hitomi de
kowaresou ni kiesou ni warawanaide
nee boku ni ha nani ga dekiru
aenai jikan ni omoi ga tsunotta
todokenai koe ni kokoro ga itanda
kimi wo shiranakatta koro ni modorenaku natte iru
doushite tokidoki sunao ni ienai
doushite tokidoki yasashiku narenai
doushite tokidoki kizutsuke-atteru
doushite tokidoki tashika me-atteru"