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[paino_desperado]

Yo. Sitting here at Jessy's watching Monster. Charlize Theron looks so gross here.

I haven't talked to Ryan in what seems like ages.

I refused to go to anyone's graduation on account of how trivial it all is. I don't know anymore.

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[__inshambles]

that's really lame that he didnt even comment (unless he hasn't been online) that makes me mad.

[paino_desperado]

I don't think he's been online lately, so I dunno. If I'm wrong, I totally agree with you. I've only talked to him once in the last week, so I dunno whats up. If I don't hear from him soon, this is going to start seeming pretty damn familiar cough*brandon*cough.....oh wait...cough*every-guy-i've-ever-dated*cough. It's kind of pathetic how I'm getting used to that kind of thing.

[__inshambles]

no, you're not pathetic. i mean, i know what you mean. you dont want to move on because there might be logical reasons for them being complete fucktards. so you're kind of just stuck in this confusion waiting thing that is really hard and annoying. but if he's just another dick who isn't going to call again, i'll beat his ass

[paino_desperado]

Exact-fuckin-ly. I get really tired of playing that damn waiting game with everyone I meet, but I feel like I don't have a lagitimate reason for being tired. I think he's just been really busy lately, like he's said, but being the paranoid lay-hoo-say-her I am, I end up thinking he doesn't like me anymore, which is probably furthest from the truth. No worries though, if I ever date another guy like that, I will not only hold the dude down for you, I'll hold the damn video camera. Then we can wallow in pride as we rewind over and over.

[__inshambles]

Yeah, you do have a right for being tired of it. Chuck always makes time for me, no matter how busy he's ever been. He even made time to call me when he was out of town with friends. It's just the one of many little things you HAVE to do when you are in a realationship. It's how you care, the little things you do is to show that you do care. You don't just put the person that you care (and in some cases I'm not sure about yours, love) on hold while you live your life. They have to be included in your life, you know? If your a couple, it's no longer your life, it's the both of your lives. You include each other in them, it's just part of being together.

[paino_desperado]

After dating a guy who considered himself to be "concieted, but not", a guy who's more of a sure thing than Anna Nicole after two drinks, and a guy who I suspected was into beatiality and indoor watersports, my standards are pretty low, as you can imagine. I just want a guy who's not gonna forget I'm here, you know? And Ryan blows everyone out of the water, I love him. It's just really sucky being so far away.

[__inshambles]

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