the orange light has stayed on so far
i miss 3rd grade, when little kids went out with eachother like crazy. and everyone thought they were in love and going to marry the other person, yea i used to have like 3 girlfriends......... A DAY! but now-as you can tell-im older and shit just doesnt work the same. which kinda sucks cuz i think everyone would like a fall-back plan. but i guess all i can do is be ok on the issue. im patient and waiting anxiously, but waiting never really was the way i played. but all this time im loving life, i cant wait till something really good happens to me. maybe i will get successful at something, but the way im going the only thing im going to be successful at is working at the airport making 5.60 an hour....... for the rest of my life. man, i complain a lot, but if ur still reading then you must be interested in my thoughts. we're all getting older people, but lets still live young (hahaha) take some chances in life, lets not base ourselves to something we're not happy with because the thing that makes us unhappy holds something that does make us happy. i dont know if anyone is going to understand that, but i do. i will give an example.... some kids do drugs to fit it-thus making them happy cuz they fit in-but they are not happy they are having to do something they personally wouldn't choose to do on their own to make themselves exceptable to this sick society. in other news, i cannot wait till it snows... this sounds childish, but nothing is funner then having fun in the snow, and i havent done that in so long, and lately it has been a feeling i cannot give up. some of you might understand that one. well i guess the worst is yet to come, but im going to wait for that to happen, because the worst can only mean im on the way to see the best, or better.