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Depression is like a ghost that haunts a house. Just because you don't see it you know it is still there and capable of returning at any time with no warning.
I really don't like this and I don't like it that it has gone on for so long. I think what triggered it is that I've been inside my house all day.
I'm thinking about just saying screw it and going to bed but I don't want to wake up at 3 am.
I don't want to play anymore video games and I don't want to play more guitar.
I don't think I have a real choice though because I've dropped a LOT of people from my life. More me time to work on myself.
I kind of wish I had a girlfriend, but at the same time I think I'm too much of a mess to really even get involved. Contradictory to that though is that it COULD boost my mood and reinvigorate me.
Oh god, haha, I just completely remembered I could be exercising. Yyyyyeah too tired for that. F that for now.
I really don't like this and I don't like it that it has gone on for so long. I think what triggered it is that I've been inside my house all day.
I'm thinking about just saying screw it and going to bed but I don't want to wake up at 3 am.
I don't want to play anymore video games and I don't want to play more guitar.
I don't think I have a real choice though because I've dropped a LOT of people from my life. More me time to work on myself.
I kind of wish I had a girlfriend, but at the same time I think I'm too much of a mess to really even get involved. Contradictory to that though is that it COULD boost my mood and reinvigorate me.
Oh god, haha, I just completely remembered I could be exercising. Yyyyyeah too tired for that. F that for now.