There was a time....
There was a time when the possibilities that the internet provided to a person seemed endles. You could talk to people, read stories, play games, learn new things. It was great.
Now the internet just seems so boring. At least to me anyway.
It's 5:20 in the morning, I can't sleep, and there's nothing to do. So naturally, the process that goes through my mind "Get on the internet! AMUSEMENT CITY!!!" Negative. Quite the opposite. Still bored.
The fact is that it's just not as amusing as it used to be. Perhaps it's because it's just readily available to me whenever I want to get on it now days. Perhaps the reason it was so cool to begin with, was because it was so novel and new. I used to have to sneak on, and it was like a thrill.
Staying up past 12am used to be so awesome, now it's just routine. It's not unusual to be up past 4 for me anymore. In fact, it's pretty much every night.
Sleeping in used to be awesome too. But now it's like I have no days. Everything just blends together. There are periods of awake, periods of asleep, and no real definition of time other than sometimes the lighting outside is different than it was before.
I need something to occupy myself with. I need to have a normal sleep schedule. In order to do that, I need to sleep. I can't sleep. Too much on my mind. Too much longing for things that have come and gone. Too much anxiety of what the future holds. Too much. Too little space. Walls closing in.
I need something new in my life. Not to replace the old, but merely to add to the variety. I need new social settings, maybe a new friend or two, new ideas, new experiences with old friends.
This has become a ramble. Don't mind me
Nothing to see here,
Jessicka
Now the internet just seems so boring. At least to me anyway.
It's 5:20 in the morning, I can't sleep, and there's nothing to do. So naturally, the process that goes through my mind "Get on the internet! AMUSEMENT CITY!!!" Negative. Quite the opposite. Still bored.
The fact is that it's just not as amusing as it used to be. Perhaps it's because it's just readily available to me whenever I want to get on it now days. Perhaps the reason it was so cool to begin with, was because it was so novel and new. I used to have to sneak on, and it was like a thrill.
Staying up past 12am used to be so awesome, now it's just routine. It's not unusual to be up past 4 for me anymore. In fact, it's pretty much every night.
Sleeping in used to be awesome too. But now it's like I have no days. Everything just blends together. There are periods of awake, periods of asleep, and no real definition of time other than sometimes the lighting outside is different than it was before.
I need something to occupy myself with. I need to have a normal sleep schedule. In order to do that, I need to sleep. I can't sleep. Too much on my mind. Too much longing for things that have come and gone. Too much anxiety of what the future holds. Too much. Too little space. Walls closing in.
I need something new in my life. Not to replace the old, but merely to add to the variety. I need new social settings, maybe a new friend or two, new ideas, new experiences with old friends.
This has become a ramble. Don't mind me
Nothing to see here,
Jessicka