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I’m freaking out here...really flipping out I hate this
I hate this all so much

I really can’t stand it much longer

I’m trying really I am...been going to meeting, been talking to people
But last night I just felt so alone, desperate and alone
Wrote a note...the note kept getting longer and longer...so long and filled with so many 'I love you's' that all I could do was write...

I left my car at work last night.
Which means I’m not driving myself in
Which means I woke up and started drinking
Granted I didn’t wake up until 2pm but still...

I need to figure this all out...I need to stop fucking things up