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Me and eric got into a huge fight today. and its weird, because today was the first time that i actually felt like it was over between me and him. I love that boy so damn much, it drives me crazy. I never thought I would love anyone this much. I never thought I would want to be with someone as much as I want to be with him. I love him more than life and its killing me because I feel like hes letting go. I know hes not, but thats just how i feel. We were doing so good and now..this...and I don't want to let go of him, but maybe he'll be happier. I love him so much and i wish he would realize that. I think he got it today, when I told him that I hated him and I didnt want to be with him, and everytime I said that, he just begged me not to leave him, but today, he asked for his grandmas ring back. I never thought he would say that. I guess its just the time to let go. I don't want to and he tells me he doesnt want me to, but I feel like maybe I should. I love him so much..and I think everyone knows that. But almost 4 years is a really long time. yeah we've had our problems and yeah we've had our fights, but I never thought it would end. I don't want it to end, but I think this time it might. I just love him..and I wish he knew it and realized it...god I love that boy..I just wish things were fine between us again...

I love you eric david danko...i love you forever...8.24.01