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So right now Im at my moms boyfriends moms house. I have nothing to do, so im updating. Im starting to get bad at this again. Maybe because Im trying to distance myself again. I dont know. I guess I have to get used to these things. I have to go back to school, not my idea of fun. I should have already graduated, but Im an idiot and I haven't. I don't know whats wrong with me. Im usually good at putting aside my feelings, but right now I just can't. Not anymore. I hate putting on this face of happiness, when Im just not happy at all. Maybe thats why I don't go around people anymore. I got used to being something I wasn't, and now that I'm back to being allowed to be myself, I lost myself. I dunno..Its just hard now...
Ive been reading a lot lately. And now I've been thinking my thoughts in story view..Its kinda weird, but thats how Ive been thinking. I dont know how to change it. Maybe stop reading so much? Nah, not gonna happen. I like reading, it takes me away from my reality that really sucks. I should be going to college this fall with all my friends, but I'm not. Im going back to highschool. Rediculus right? But it happens. I know I failed, I'm willing to accept that. At least Im going back. Thats all that should matter to me, and anyone else..
My mom is still talking about moving to Garden City. She wants to be close to her boyfrined/fiancee. He lives in Westland, my question is though..why not just move to Westland? I don't know anyone in either city, but theres nothing like a fresh start...right? Who knows...maybe it will be better for me.
Amelia is leaving today to go to school...who knows..she's probably already gone. I wish her nothing but the best of luck. I know she'll succeed. She's so smart. So amelia..if you read this..Good Luck. I know you don't need it, but still..good luck. Ill eventually move out there lol...
So im gonna go...Ill write more soon I guess..bye bye!!
What do you do when your world falls apart?
Ive been reading a lot lately. And now I've been thinking my thoughts in story view..Its kinda weird, but thats how Ive been thinking. I dont know how to change it. Maybe stop reading so much? Nah, not gonna happen. I like reading, it takes me away from my reality that really sucks. I should be going to college this fall with all my friends, but I'm not. Im going back to highschool. Rediculus right? But it happens. I know I failed, I'm willing to accept that. At least Im going back. Thats all that should matter to me, and anyone else..
My mom is still talking about moving to Garden City. She wants to be close to her boyfrined/fiancee. He lives in Westland, my question is though..why not just move to Westland? I don't know anyone in either city, but theres nothing like a fresh start...right? Who knows...maybe it will be better for me.
Amelia is leaving today to go to school...who knows..she's probably already gone. I wish her nothing but the best of luck. I know she'll succeed. She's so smart. So amelia..if you read this..Good Luck. I know you don't need it, but still..good luck. Ill eventually move out there lol...
So im gonna go...Ill write more soon I guess..bye bye!!
What do you do when your world falls apart?