just a few things; i can jot down.

[pain_n_pills]

I miss James.

Im not feeling well today. I guess ill blame my period. I feel like nothing seems to be right today.

I was supposed to go to warped tour today. But zach sold out. surprise surprise. So i came into work.

I wonder if james will ever actually be happy with me? i wonder if anything ive done has made him realize that i love him so much. i dont ever want to be without him.

im to needy
im to clingy
ill never be good enough.
for him
for anyone.
maybe i should just get over it and realize, ill probably be the crazy cat lady.
i like cats.
so theres even more of a chance of that actually happening.
he needs someone amazing, someone so wonderful.
someone to show him not everyone sucks, to show him what unconditional love is.

i read his "journal" today?
i shouldnt have. it upsets me every time.
but the thing that upsets me is, there isnt one thing about me in it.
like im not important enough to jot down.
then, there are these girls that comment..
"ill be there if you need anyone to talk to"
"we should hang out"

no. because i want him to be forever mine. ILL ALWAYS BE THERE FOR HIM GOD DAMNIT. ME. AND HE FUCKING KNOWS THAT.

fuckmylife.