You'd Better Start Swimmin or Sink Like A Stone, O the Times They Are A Changin'
This morning I finally sat down and wrote in my journal, something I havent done in a long time. I would love to get around to making this a habit, and at least do this once or twice a week. This is all possible because of my loss of hours at the lab and my mornings by myself. I think that this has definitly happened for a reason and that reason is to increase my spiritual condition. I prayed this morning too, and in a somewhat serviant fashion. Like on my knees, and that was only cause I was making my bed and found myself praying on my knees. When I realized what I was doing I continued to pray on my knees because i think its important to treat my relationship with my higher power as one of respect. This being said its important for me not to get too "buddy buddy" with my concepts and keep it a bit formal.
I prayed for a new sponser and I also asked to be helped with applying my program more succesfully in all my affairs. I know this sounds cheesy and all, but I feel that its real important to my mental health.
D's Hyundai is finally out of the shop for the umteenth time and we have come to the decision to sell it and take our luck elsewhere. I think we should buy a Honda or something like that. I want a car that is reliable and will keep running with out serious issues that this one seems to harbor. The Buick is still running strong but isnt so easy on the eyes. Unfortunatly for me this is not a reason to sell my car, so I will continue to drive my crab-mobile until it rusts apart.
In positive news I am doing well in all my classes and I am happy that my grant was extended to cover my spring/summer classes coming up. I was worried about how long I would have until I needed to pay for my school and I guess I dont need to think about that anymore. Now I am worrying about my tax returns and my FAFSA for this year. I havent heard back from either enterprise for awhile and Im starting to get a little skiddish about what is going on witn their status. EEeeee. I hate it.
LOL. I bought chicken plates from Williams-Sonoma for D cause she said that she liked them. I am excited to eat off the chickens. At first I thought that they were roosters and that made me laugh, you know, eating off cocks and all. They are honestly kind of ugly but I got them anyway cause I know that they make her happy. Making her happy makes me happy. I guess that kind of stuff happens when your married. The other reason that I got them was because she was buying me a present and I wanted to kind of even the score. She bought me Mario Batalis Cook Book, Babo, and I havent really gotten her anything in awhile. Nevertheless it is a gift from the heart.
Friday I work with Jake at some huge dinner party. Should be fun. I love partys.
Thank you God for keeping me clean. Thank you for my family and friends. Thank you for the program of Narcotics Anonymous and for the people in it that serve as a constant source of strength and guidance that I can use to draw from. Thank you for everything. Its been fun.
Your loving son.
Jim