LONG time no write.
I notice the I only get the craving to write when I am feeling low or depressed. I guess, then, that it is a good thing that I write far and few between. Things have been going great lately. It's summer vacation and I am almost done with 7 more credit hours. I just got back from Chicago with Shane and it was so much fun. He has a job at State Farm. And I love my friends. My parents and I have a great relationship this summer.
Writing all of that some-what cheered me up.
I am not even sure what I am feeling down about. But it seems as if every time I talk to Shane, I hang up the phone feeling worse than I did before I talked to him. He has 2 jobs, and the state farm one is 3rd shift, from 10-830. Then he has to appraise, then sleep, then do it all over. I can see and understand so much why that would stress him out. But it seems he doesn't even miss me during the week. Am I being self-centered? I guess I should take the time off from him to enjoy spending more time with myself, my friends, and my family while I can. But we've been together now for 2 years and 4 months. And it seems we may not be meant for eachother. He talks about us moving in together, and what we're gonna do together in the future. But what I think we both don't get is that we are really different when it comes to living life. I enjoy little things and goofing around, but still being serious...and Shane is way more business-like and money is his central focus in life. . . or though it seems. I'm just feelin really low for some reason. :-/
Writing all of that some-what cheered me up.
I am not even sure what I am feeling down about. But it seems as if every time I talk to Shane, I hang up the phone feeling worse than I did before I talked to him. He has 2 jobs, and the state farm one is 3rd shift, from 10-830. Then he has to appraise, then sleep, then do it all over. I can see and understand so much why that would stress him out. But it seems he doesn't even miss me during the week. Am I being self-centered? I guess I should take the time off from him to enjoy spending more time with myself, my friends, and my family while I can. But we've been together now for 2 years and 4 months. And it seems we may not be meant for eachother. He talks about us moving in together, and what we're gonna do together in the future. But what I think we both don't get is that we are really different when it comes to living life. I enjoy little things and goofing around, but still being serious...and Shane is way more business-like and money is his central focus in life. . . or though it seems. I'm just feelin really low for some reason. :-/