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so there is a lot on my mind but i guess ill just split it into two entries...
first, i just cant seem to stop thinking about that kid from plainview. for those of you that dont know, a few days ago there was a 16 year old boy who was speeding down some road without a license (its unknown whether alcohol was involved). the car somehow swerved off the road, killing the 16 year old kid and his older friend in the passenger seat is in critical condition. it just makes you wonder how people can possibly be so stupid. its just one of those things that i cant understand
and then there is dan. i really hope he doesnt mind me writing about him so openly like this but o well. as we speak he is over this kids house sitting shiva. he was only aquianted with this kid and his beating himself up. he is beating himself up simply because he made a mistake back in freshman year. everyone was naive and stupid and i guess getting involved in selling alcohol was probably not the brightest mood, but he never could have known that it would send this same particular kid to the hospital. i guess im just lucky that dan grew out of that stage.
so a few minutes ago i get a text from dan saying "what am i supposed to say when i get there?...hi remember me? the last time you saw me i sold your son alcohol that put him in the hospital...there is no way to find the right words". it just makes me think. i know you cant live with regret for things that were out of your control. but it just doesnt make sense how things like this can happen.
i was told a story about a funeral. where the rabbi spoke of the child that had been killed. he said how when a man or woman loses a husband/wife, they are called a widow. when a child loses his/her parents, he/she is called an orphan. but there is no name, in either english or hebrew, to describe a parent who has lost a child. and who am i kidding? im just a kid what do i know? how can i possibly pretend that i understand pain like that? and ok, so i dont. but that doesnt mean i cant feel it.
so thats my rant for today. there are just too many things in this world that i simply cannot understand.
first, i just cant seem to stop thinking about that kid from plainview. for those of you that dont know, a few days ago there was a 16 year old boy who was speeding down some road without a license (its unknown whether alcohol was involved). the car somehow swerved off the road, killing the 16 year old kid and his older friend in the passenger seat is in critical condition. it just makes you wonder how people can possibly be so stupid. its just one of those things that i cant understand
and then there is dan. i really hope he doesnt mind me writing about him so openly like this but o well. as we speak he is over this kids house sitting shiva. he was only aquianted with this kid and his beating himself up. he is beating himself up simply because he made a mistake back in freshman year. everyone was naive and stupid and i guess getting involved in selling alcohol was probably not the brightest mood, but he never could have known that it would send this same particular kid to the hospital. i guess im just lucky that dan grew out of that stage.
so a few minutes ago i get a text from dan saying "what am i supposed to say when i get there?...hi remember me? the last time you saw me i sold your son alcohol that put him in the hospital...there is no way to find the right words". it just makes me think. i know you cant live with regret for things that were out of your control. but it just doesnt make sense how things like this can happen.
i was told a story about a funeral. where the rabbi spoke of the child that had been killed. he said how when a man or woman loses a husband/wife, they are called a widow. when a child loses his/her parents, he/she is called an orphan. but there is no name, in either english or hebrew, to describe a parent who has lost a child. and who am i kidding? im just a kid what do i know? how can i possibly pretend that i understand pain like that? and ok, so i dont. but that doesnt mean i cant feel it.
so thats my rant for today. there are just too many things in this world that i simply cannot understand.