Man
I just totally sunk. What a fucking PRICK. :'( *sigh* I semi-feel like shit.
But de first week of school is OVER, WOOOOOOOOOOO!!!! It's going to be a hard semester. My friend who took an overload last year (as I am, this year) told me that one can do it, but one can't have that much fun and.... well, I want fun. I feel like I'm devoting what other time I have to one person in particular, and then I have like... two other real friends here who are transferring next year so, I vant to socialize and meet new people, but I feel like I'm reverting back to how I was in ... high school and further. Again, I semi-feel like shit.
And I have a sort of dilemma. I'm in a suite with 4 rooms, 3 of which are officially occupied by me and my two suitemates. Well, my suitemate's brother is occupying the fourth room and he doesn't go to my school. I don't really have anything against that... that much... as I understand it I think he's just staying here (for free) because my suitemate's family doesn't want to pay for his own housing or... whatever... I think he goes to another college that's about 15-20 minutes away... and I don't really see him around and I don't have to share a bathroom with him or anything, but it's just the fact that he's there that irks me. I don't know how much GA Tech housing is but my sister goes there and it's pretty fucking cheap for a college if you have the HOPE scholarship, and even without the scholarship I don't think it could be that bad because it's a public school, and there are thingies called loans and grants and financial aid, or otherwise he could just live at his own bloody house. I guess I'm just a tad bit worried because there's just something sort of... inherently wrong about this; I mean, it's illegal and I feel like I'm an accessory to a crime... and what if I bloody lose my scholarship? I don't know how or why that would happen just because my suitemate's brother is staying here, but I'm paranoid. Also, my suitemate didn't even ask me and my other suitemate if he could stay. ALSO, and this is the main main problem here, in all seriousness I am fucking freaked out about swine flu and I know it's going around GA Tech [my sister bloody got it, and thank god she's fine... and the rest of my family is fine (so far) but I'm freaked out so freaked out, not for me especially, but for someone I care about] and if he bloody GOES THERE, then that's just more chance for him to bring it to my campus. I just feel like this is wrong. It's wrong, right? Or should I let it slide? Or... should I give a faculty member an anonymous hint that this is happening? Or am I making a big deal? But swine flu is a big deal and I'm being paranoid about that, but it's not unreasonable paranoia.
Bababah. Anyway. Rant over. Haaai domooooo. I think I'm becoming wayyyy too dependent.
Heeeey, One Piece!!! Fuck ja!!!! It keeps me going. ^__________________^
But de first week of school is OVER, WOOOOOOOOOOO!!!! It's going to be a hard semester. My friend who took an overload last year (as I am, this year) told me that one can do it, but one can't have that much fun and.... well, I want fun. I feel like I'm devoting what other time I have to one person in particular, and then I have like... two other real friends here who are transferring next year so, I vant to socialize and meet new people, but I feel like I'm reverting back to how I was in ... high school and further. Again, I semi-feel like shit.
And I have a sort of dilemma. I'm in a suite with 4 rooms, 3 of which are officially occupied by me and my two suitemates. Well, my suitemate's brother is occupying the fourth room and he doesn't go to my school. I don't really have anything against that... that much... as I understand it I think he's just staying here (for free) because my suitemate's family doesn't want to pay for his own housing or... whatever... I think he goes to another college that's about 15-20 minutes away... and I don't really see him around and I don't have to share a bathroom with him or anything, but it's just the fact that he's there that irks me. I don't know how much GA Tech housing is but my sister goes there and it's pretty fucking cheap for a college if you have the HOPE scholarship, and even without the scholarship I don't think it could be that bad because it's a public school, and there are thingies called loans and grants and financial aid, or otherwise he could just live at his own bloody house. I guess I'm just a tad bit worried because there's just something sort of... inherently wrong about this; I mean, it's illegal and I feel like I'm an accessory to a crime... and what if I bloody lose my scholarship? I don't know how or why that would happen just because my suitemate's brother is staying here, but I'm paranoid. Also, my suitemate didn't even ask me and my other suitemate if he could stay. ALSO, and this is the main main problem here, in all seriousness I am fucking freaked out about swine flu and I know it's going around GA Tech [my sister bloody got it, and thank god she's fine... and the rest of my family is fine (so far) but I'm freaked out so freaked out, not for me especially, but for someone I care about] and if he bloody GOES THERE, then that's just more chance for him to bring it to my campus. I just feel like this is wrong. It's wrong, right? Or should I let it slide? Or... should I give a faculty member an anonymous hint that this is happening? Or am I making a big deal? But swine flu is a big deal and I'm being paranoid about that, but it's not unreasonable paranoia.
Bababah. Anyway. Rant over. Haaai domooooo. I think I'm becoming wayyyy too dependent.
Heeeey, One Piece!!! Fuck ja!!!! It keeps me going. ^__________________^