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Well, I got laid off. And I'm back to the same old, same old. Needing a good job, having there be no good jobs, and having no godamn idea what I want in life. This all just brings into sharp contrast how I have no plans, no ambition. I never have and I probably never will. I had some when I was young, but they were all just things I was into, nothing that could actually be a job. And besides, when you get older, the money things bring in is just as, if not more, important than what you want to do.
I just feel like my life has no purpose, no meaning. All I can do is know facts, and that doesn't help me much.
I don't want to be a receptionist for the rest of my life. I don't want to work an hourly job at just above minimum wage and always live paycheck to paycheck. I want a house and kids and to be secure and stable. I think all I really ever wanted in life was stability. I want to be able to live somewhere that I can paint the walls, and have my cats and be happy.
I don't know what I am going to do.
I just feel like my life has no purpose, no meaning. All I can do is know facts, and that doesn't help me much.
I don't want to be a receptionist for the rest of my life. I don't want to work an hourly job at just above minimum wage and always live paycheck to paycheck. I want a house and kids and to be secure and stable. I think all I really ever wanted in life was stability. I want to be able to live somewhere that I can paint the walls, and have my cats and be happy.
I don't know what I am going to do.