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Well I've been successful at being lame and boring lately. Between trying to run Spirit Squad and working almost every night this week, I barely have time to sleep or study or see Alex. Last time I went out was like last Sunday. Some party Jay Hogart was like, "Please oh please, Paige, if you don't come to this party I'll just die." Okay, either that or I was so bored out of my mind and I thought my one night off I should actually go out and do something. Anyway, it was a nice time for a night off, I suppose. Okay, I probably drank a little too much, but it's not like I messed up or anything. I danced (a LOT), but that's it. I guess I just wanted to see what Alex's old friends are like. We're sort of from two different worlds, I wanted to see how different they are than me. And they are definitely, um, way different. I don't know if that's good or bad, just different.
Alex, how about you accompany me to the mall tomorrow? Pretty please? I really do like her, a lot. And I know it bothers her that we can't be like 'HEY you're my girlfriend and let's tell the whole world!' but..I'm just not like that. I don't know, I just would feel..weird. This whole thing is weird. I'm not a lesbian. Wrong Michalchuk. It's not that I'm NOT attracted to guys... which I guess would make me bisexual? God, I don't know but sometimes I feel like it would be a lot easier if I didn't realize I had feelings for Alex. Not saying I regret it. I like her a lot. She's...surprisingly sweet and caring and nice and anything that I would want. I guess I just feel bad because she wants everyone to know about us and I feel like I can't give her what she wants. I don't know. Shoe sale. Which means I'll need help carrying my bags! Haha.
Alright, Dylan's calling.. I gotta go!
Alex, how about you accompany me to the mall tomorrow? Pretty please? I really do like her, a lot. And I know it bothers her that we can't be like 'HEY you're my girlfriend and let's tell the whole world!' but..I'm just not like that. I don't know, I just would feel..weird. This whole thing is weird. I'm not a lesbian. Wrong Michalchuk. It's not that I'm NOT attracted to guys... which I guess would make me bisexual? God, I don't know but sometimes I feel like it would be a lot easier if I didn't realize I had feelings for Alex. Not saying I regret it. I like her a lot. She's...surprisingly sweet and caring and nice and anything that I would want. I guess I just feel bad because she wants everyone to know about us and I feel like I can't give her what she wants. I don't know. Shoe sale. Which means I'll need help carrying my bags! Haha.
Alright, Dylan's calling.. I gotta go!