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Wow. Two posts in one night. This might be a record.
Anyway.
I've like... been thinking on this for a few weeks now. And I can't fall asleep right now knowing that this might change my entire life; for better, or for the worse. Hopefully for the better.
I was planning on going into the Army in July of this year.. And pussed out because I made a lot of new friends, and figured I could get a job and go to school here. Well, so far, none of that has happened. And it's getting to the point where it seems like my last resort.. Again.
I honestly don't know what else to do. All I've been doing here is getting into trouble, doing drugs, and drinking. And it's not doing anything good for me. I hate life, I hate people, and I'm just wasting away in my parents basement.
They're helping me out with my probation and my fines and everything, which is awesome of them, that way I don't go to jail. But I need to be able to pay them back, and I don't see that happening any time in the near future, unless I do something drastic with my life.
I've tried and tried and can't get a decent job here. It just isn't happening. And I've been dragging my ass and can't afford to go to school, for anything at all. And just.. The military seems like my best option.
I don't know what to do. I'm so on the fence about this. :(
Anyway.
I've like... been thinking on this for a few weeks now. And I can't fall asleep right now knowing that this might change my entire life; for better, or for the worse. Hopefully for the better.
I was planning on going into the Army in July of this year.. And pussed out because I made a lot of new friends, and figured I could get a job and go to school here. Well, so far, none of that has happened. And it's getting to the point where it seems like my last resort.. Again.
I honestly don't know what else to do. All I've been doing here is getting into trouble, doing drugs, and drinking. And it's not doing anything good for me. I hate life, I hate people, and I'm just wasting away in my parents basement.
They're helping me out with my probation and my fines and everything, which is awesome of them, that way I don't go to jail. But I need to be able to pay them back, and I don't see that happening any time in the near future, unless I do something drastic with my life.
I've tried and tried and can't get a decent job here. It just isn't happening. And I've been dragging my ass and can't afford to go to school, for anything at all. And just.. The military seems like my best option.
I don't know what to do. I'm so on the fence about this. :(