Your universe is what you make of it.
I'm trying not to go over the copy of Richard Bach's Illusions I bought for someone recently with a pencil and speed mail it up to her. I finally broke down and bought my own hardcover not to be lent out. It's used and like it seems every copy I have ever run across has a hand written inscription in the front to someone. Like the one I received. I'm still figuring out which quote to put in the front, and my re-reading caught something else I missed before: "So I made the airplane..."Mostly because one of the pieces of advice I saw to her made deeply concerned me.
"There are jobs that do provide people with some sense of accomplishment or pride or happiness, but engineering isn't one of them."
There is a joy of creating something, of bringing your ideas from your mind into physical form. That's the two parts of positive thinking is building it in your mind and then bringing it forward into the universe. Thought with action.
For those of us who like to build things this is a form of pride, and happiness, and accomplishment. I made this, it has form, and in someway create a type of immortality. Think about a museum filled with objects from the distant past. We most times will never know who created this object but 1000 years later a scholar, a reenactor, an artist is there trying to figure it out, re-recreate it or learn from it.
As a chef in the SCA I was jealous of the builders of things, because at the end of the day we had a lot of well fed patrons, and maybe some photos but no actual permanent construct. As a clinician my patients no matter how good a job I do they will pass.
As someone who recently has made some decisions to finally take action. Thus inducing the my usual wave of "But if I just live like everyone else..." anxiety that social conditioning and programming causes. Which after years of work I can mostly ignore, just ignore the contents of my paper journal. I will tell you I filled up an entire journal in the 6 months prior to my trip full of angst and fears. Let me sum up most of it as "Can I really do this?"
For someone younger, and it was even more so when I was in my early 20's it was so hard to tune that out. I have more time than my patients but less time than I thought by listening to their wisdom. So I will do what I want to make my life full and happy of the things that bring me "accomplishment or pride or happiness" and leave the rest.
The core of this initial post I am replying to was "How do I fake my lack of enthusiasm for my workplace?" I know I am paraphrasing a lot here. I know I have been in jobs that have not been a good fit previously. Several of them I tried to get out ASAP but the market was not in my favor. But I left when I could. One of them I tried to make changes from the inside, then the outside and then gave up.
But what should be said is: "Find a job with a better fit for you. That is in alignment with who you are, and what you want to do, and the goals you have for yourself."
It's finding and accepting the type of engineering that works for you, and what you love and want to do. You would probably not be happy with my job. But I am, we each get to choose and live our own lives. It's up to you to go out and live them. I have finally after years of work gotten to that point, and I have to remember that this was not by luck but by engineering and planning and I do have, "accomplishment or pride or happiness."
"There are jobs that do provide people with some sense of accomplishment or pride or happiness, but engineering isn't one of them."
There is a joy of creating something, of bringing your ideas from your mind into physical form. That's the two parts of positive thinking is building it in your mind and then bringing it forward into the universe. Thought with action.
For those of us who like to build things this is a form of pride, and happiness, and accomplishment. I made this, it has form, and in someway create a type of immortality. Think about a museum filled with objects from the distant past. We most times will never know who created this object but 1000 years later a scholar, a reenactor, an artist is there trying to figure it out, re-recreate it or learn from it.
As a chef in the SCA I was jealous of the builders of things, because at the end of the day we had a lot of well fed patrons, and maybe some photos but no actual permanent construct. As a clinician my patients no matter how good a job I do they will pass.
As someone who recently has made some decisions to finally take action. Thus inducing the my usual wave of "But if I just live like everyone else..." anxiety that social conditioning and programming causes. Which after years of work I can mostly ignore, just ignore the contents of my paper journal. I will tell you I filled up an entire journal in the 6 months prior to my trip full of angst and fears. Let me sum up most of it as "Can I really do this?"
For someone younger, and it was even more so when I was in my early 20's it was so hard to tune that out. I have more time than my patients but less time than I thought by listening to their wisdom. So I will do what I want to make my life full and happy of the things that bring me "accomplishment or pride or happiness" and leave the rest.
The core of this initial post I am replying to was "How do I fake my lack of enthusiasm for my workplace?" I know I am paraphrasing a lot here. I know I have been in jobs that have not been a good fit previously. Several of them I tried to get out ASAP but the market was not in my favor. But I left when I could. One of them I tried to make changes from the inside, then the outside and then gave up.
But what should be said is: "Find a job with a better fit for you. That is in alignment with who you are, and what you want to do, and the goals you have for yourself."
It's finding and accepting the type of engineering that works for you, and what you love and want to do. You would probably not be happy with my job. But I am, we each get to choose and live our own lives. It's up to you to go out and live them. I have finally after years of work gotten to that point, and I have to remember that this was not by luck but by engineering and planning and I do have, "accomplishment or pride or happiness."