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Man, the last few weeks a kind of wierd experience was going on inside my head. I guess it started when I was feeling like I wanted to get back to activist type activity, which used to be kind of central to my life but dropped off a couple years ago. But before it had been hella natural, like I just started this politico paper and went to rallies and shit because it was hella tight. But now it was more like a duty, and I lacked intrinsic motivation to do it. And that set me off down a lot of thinking and questioning (see last few posts). It's hard to explain like, but at times I had thought so hard, that I had seen through the whole world in a way, not like I had thought about every thing, but that I had cut through so many illusions that now I couldn't make out anything.
This kind of went away without reaching any specific conclusions, but I have a feeling like I can progress in the world. I think a few thoughts which kind of helped resolve it were
-At what point could you possibly think of something which would satisfy any of these questions?
-Even if all things should really be fake, that means I'm totally free.
-The cultivation of the self and healing of the earth should occur together, one needn't precede the other
I wouldn't say that issue (¡ha!) is closed, but it looks like I'm past that peak in any case.
Looks like I got my schedule all worked out for next semester. If when they let us adjust I can get it down to 4 days a week or change it so I can fit in this student research program in sustainability (1-8 units) that I got a flyer for, I'll do it. I'm taking Introduction to Biology, Chemistry, Statistics, and Sociology of America for my American cultures credit and the half of my social science credit that must be very specific. I'm going 8-2 on Mon,Wed,Fri. 1-5 Tuesday and 2-6 Thursday.